Susubear Little Inn: Work ?

Seeking My True Self

Monday, August 25, 2008

Work ?

Sometimes, I tend to think, why on earth must I work, in the end of the day when I receive my salary, I have to pay for 101things and everything = 0

I owe the bloody government 25k, and they sent me a late letter so I'm owing them 2months of debts now. Good, if I don't pay in time, I cannot get out of this country, sucks right? Next on, graduation ceremony costing aud125 = RM370, plus bus fares and spendings rubbish. Ahh yes, parking fees in the office. Meals and my usual stuffs I need to buy every month. How about contact lens costing RM80 per pair, thanks to my big astig. Wait, I've forgotten the most important, I have to pay money to two household as well.

Seriously, work for what? I will have no money left at the end of the month. Even I want to buy something I must consider very long before I make that decision. No new bag for me T.T I tend to be very stingy to myself, I always consider the price of that thing if I were to buy for myself, but I'm so generous to my bf, everything for him I don't really mind about the price. What's wrong with me?

I'm always thinking of saving to go Perth again during year end. Why leh? Why spending money on him I don't feel that it's call wasted, few Ks on airticket but I don't really mind? While I save every cents on stuffs I buy? Maybe due to the overwhelming joy of seeing a person after so long? I save so much, do so much also for one person only. I wonder, is he that important to me that 's worth or cost sooo much from me? Sometimes I do feel very tired of doing too much. Girls hope for return, they do .. there's no such things as doing without any return.

I wanna marry a rich guy and become sui lai lai, everyday go shopping, hi-tea with other rich wifes, buy everything I like without looking at price, go do my hair,spa, facial,gym whenever I want. Go play golf, swimming do everything those rich wife will do .. eat at high class restaurant, hotels and go holiday without looking at calender. Working life need to see calender, plan when got the most public holiday, apply leave, management approve only can go ..

I feel so tied up with working life, especially there's no such things as work life balance in our country.

Ahem, any rich man out there wants to marry me? I will grow fat for you and give you a lot of babies =P

Recently I saw my previous schoolmates, same age and they already have a baby around 3years old? Gosh, I feel like so weird, suddenly feel like I'm so old, suddenly feel like people at my age also can build such a beautiful family, they really look very happy to me just like a perfect family. I guess a mistake they made actually brought much happiness in their life now, an added soul not necessary will bring burden if you look at another perspective, seemed like the little boy brought much joy into their life.

No no, I'm not thinking about getting married so soon, UNLESS like I said you're rich, then I might consider. Sorry this is life and reality, hurts that the truth is like that .. Money is everything?

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