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Hungry for Redang?

Due to too many assignments lately, it had create such great stress within me, where I just felt that I should spend my holidays here at Pulau Redang. The island that's situated at Terengganu is made famous by the movie named "More-more Tea" casting Richie Ren and Sammi Cheng.


Well of course this place is famous for beautiful corals where we will be able to enjoy through snorkling. Heard that there were baby sharks, hey hey don't worry they don't bite, they see human they run away ok? But according to my friend that went snorkling a few times, he said didn't spot any at all. Oh well, you are considered lucky if u get to see any because they won't even let u see them, shy shy sharks. There are nemos, yeah cute lil clown fishies and many more beautiful fishes around but be reminded not to touch anything underwater as you may destroy the ecosystem.


Such a beautiful place with extraordinary scenery, I'm falling in love with the island, even I'm not there yet. Well, sigh really hope that I can go there. Laying down on the sand, under neath thecoconut tree, wacthing the sun rises up from the sea.



Best part would be if I would make it during the world cup, woah imagine watching matches with friends, shouting goal together, competiting against each other wanting our desired teams to win, I mean the teams is competing not us, Lol. Wait wait watching tv at seaside? Hearing the sound of waves, shout "Go Go Go, my Ang Jung Huan!!!" There are high chances there we may get to spot shooting stars during the night time too.


I really wish that I could go. Sigh, if I would miss this beautiful place this year, the next chance is next year where all my friends had left for Australia, which means equals to no chance liao. If anyone do not know, we can't go redang end of the year, please go read geography book la.

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Author **Suzanne** @ 2:02 AM Comments: 1

I'm not me anymore

Lost myself, drowing in the assignments. Everyday my job scope is o crack my head and brainstorm. Find sources, find sources. Markething plan, thinking all about implications implications. I'm going SIAO soon. Very soon. No sleep. Got eat. Sit infront of computer everyday until backside pain.

When will holiday come? Assignments finish got final exams. Mati kong kiao liao. Everyday study study .. What to do with Company Law? The most difficult subject ever. Getting fatter, stress can eat more? Why every time I so fast hungry? Sore throat now due to too much of keropok lekor. Miss eating tau fu fa with Shan, haha. Tau fu fa seller is Jay Chou's fan. Geng ah ! - Who always like to say this words ah? Oh yeah, it's Mr.Dota King. Wanna play Dota? Let me introduce u to my friend, the one who got sponsored by Horus to attend dota State competition.

Enough of rubbish trashing. Aiyor, very poor now. Need money, wanna work as part-timer in roadshows. No not like what you think. Not those roadshows that wear skimppy clothes ok ? Wanna go shopping, want to buy clothes and shoes, but no money. Most important of all my redang trip, sigh.. sigh.

Soli, today language poor. No mood to write in proper england. As I've written too much in assignments and I'm tired of writing. Cabut, very blur now.

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Author **Suzanne** @ 10:59 PM Comments: 1

Another Competition Again?

When I mentioned can you please vote? Everyone must be thinking of money again. "Sorry ah credit boh liao now, cannot vote". I hate this kind of voting system which eventually benefits the organiser where they'll earn more than the prizes the contestants will get. Total nonsense. From the past experiences I had, all these companies earn money through votes, let's say the figure reached up to million(Only sms ok?!!) in 8tv Superstar project and the results I find it truly unfair. Desiree still deserve to be call the real star.

Nah, this time before I join this contest, uh... I mean us I've surveyed that it won't cost a cent or I don't really bother nuts about it.

Had this on-going roadshow on our college on Wednesday. After we finish dicussing about our assignments we headed down to cafeteria, and this girl came to approach May (LOL, not me cos I not pretty enough!). "Do you want to join our contest, it's call the Beauty in Me... blabla". Then she said "Oh both of you can join this call Beauty in Us contest and win RM2000 shopping voucher". Of course my eyes went big after I heard the prizes, as usual. So we joined and we're the last pair of contestants for the KDU's roadshow for that day.

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Author **Suzanne** @ 3:53 PM Comments: 0

The Unbearable Level of Stress in life

Just came back from church youth camp at Tapah, it was real tiring experience espcially during stream trotting. There are still scars of leaches and cuts left on my hands and legs but nothing much tough just small lil wounds. Now I'm back to the city life, back to college life, back to reality with assignemnts and exams.

First bad thing that occur today. Law result is release. Failed my 1st test badly as I'm a person that will never understand what's law trying to say there. Now 2nd test means 2nd chance. I strive real hard this time, spent 2 hours plus on sleeping before exam that day and yet I only got a pass for that particular exam which means I need more than a pass for my finals (so impossible, u expect me to write out those cases where I don't even know what they talking about?). How now? No idea. Strive harder? I've read the passage few times yet I still don't catch what it's trying to say at all.

Second, why is everyone leaving? Byebye to my college friends that are leaving for Murdoch next year which means I'll lost all my good team members. Of course losing social life at college too, not much people left to communicate with as everyone will be gone gone and gone. How am I gonna get through my group assignments, if there are only those "lazy" ones left? Sigh, good ones normally will leave for overseas to continue their studies.

Third, my dearly bf is flying off too which means another one is gone again. Well, this is really bad. Who to watch movie with for the year to come? Totally my whole social life would be gone as much close friends are flying off!! The fact is that not I'm not sociable but just that I have no friends that will ask me out. Yes I've been living my past few years of life like that, maybe that causes me to rely on him very much.

*Sob Sob* good friends leaving for Aussie, who to sing karaoke with me? Bf also going off, no more going on dating?(I'll miss you so much) I wish I could go along, I wish I do have the amount of money, just for the last semester in my studies, hoping to pursue my last half a year there. Sadly, not so wealthy people like me can't afford such expensive education unless miracles happen where suddenly someone come tell me I'll pay for your education, woah sky fall down man.

I really wish that it would happen. 1st hoping to spend my last semester there to take up subjects that are not offer here. I want to do advertising production(only available at Perth), can I just have a chance to use my creativity for once? Instead of putting it at waste for the rest of my life? 2nd hoping to spend my graduation there at the ground of Murdoch University, wearing a red colour robe with my friends, receiving the certificate from the Chansellor of university, wouldn't it be great? *Day Dreaming* - Praying hard for it to happen though.

God does wonders right? If he would give me a chance to learn to be independant, to learn about other cultures, to seek further education for subjects that are not offer here, to use my creativity just for once. Have trust in Him and it would happen. I'm still waiting for His plan for me hoping this would be a part of the plan.

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Author **Suzanne** @ 1:19 AM Comments: 0

Mission Imossible 2 for me

I break my own record where I do not even sleep less than 4 hours for all my previous exams including SPM, foundation exams and Year 1 degree exams. I only spend 2 hours on sleeping on Tuesday night.

Reason why? Thanks to Company Law which is so darn freaking hard which every single sentences equals to a paragraph and eventually after reading it I asked myself "Hey, what did I just read a minute ago?" Totally had no idea on what they are trying to say there. So this made a conclusion that all lawyers out there are crazy people. How do they manage to understand such terms? It cost me permenant head damage, high level of uncontrol stress, nightmares dreaming of law cases I just read. It's real horrible.

Next due to lack of sleep, yet I'm still so energetic, I manage to pull trough the exam yet attending 3 hours of classes until 5PM. Incerdible, how did I manage to do that? I didn't even fall asleep in any of those classes where I usually do even I had 8 hours of sleep time.

Lecturer gave us back our individual report today. Announced that the marks had been finalise by the moderate at Aussie. Yippie, got a distinction, which is 11.5/15. It's not very good yet it's satisfying so, whatever la, difference between a High Distinction and mine was on 0.5. Don't really bother about grades until finals comes. I stare into my marking guide and realise everything was OK, until I saw the grammer part, WHAT ?!! how come I made so many grammatical errors. Darn, this is call lazy to check. I am still not as compatible as others friends of mine, my clique where everyone scored HD, they are siao (Sorry I mean all of you are too amazing). Must belanja me minum liao.

Due to high level of stress and lack of sleep, one mood tends to sway greatly. This is why there's subjects that are thought on STRESS MANAGEMENT in part of the syllabus in some subjects, now I understand that it's very useful. About what I wrote yesterday, part of it I do not mean it, so do not sue me for defamation and I'm one who'll apologise, so sorry for that one.

The amazing-ness of photoshop CS

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Author **Suzanne** @ 11:31 PM Comments: 0

A silly girl name Suzanne

The one who's hopelessly devoted to one with no returns, being hurt numerous times in life is me. Though the surface of it looks like everything was perfect, but deeply inside there are many things that others do not see. Everytime, I kept reminding myself that I just shouldn't do too much for one, as I place too much hope in one, that everytime returns to failure, the unbearble pain is only me who truly knows it.

From months ahead I've start planning things until when the day comes. Somethings cannot be done in an hour time, yet a day time or a week time. It requires much effort and time, commitment and patients.
-I've sing numerous times until my voice is gone just to make the music perfect.
-Much sleep time is sacrifice where I minimize it to 6 hours of sleep per day for me now
-Multitasking require to complete many things in the same time
-Spend much time in looking for perfect gifts, practically walking whole of 2 shopping complex
There are many that I wouldn't go into details in here

Some said "How do I wish my girlfriend would do such things for me" yet for those who had one they do not learn to appreciate. As I've said, one appreciate more on what others do compared to mine. Even there's like little things compare to mine which is much more greater. A whole long page of e-mail about appreciation would be sent to others compare to mine which is just a mere "Thank You". Now I truly start to wonder where do I stand in one's heart? Or one will just never realise he have such person in his life until one lost it one day.

I do not understand why must it be so unfair? Why must I be treated this way as I've done far much more? People do get a e-mail of appreciation, what did I get in return? Not even a sms saying that one really do appreciate things I've done afterall ? Don't one understand that even msgs could be very encouring and would eventually make the person feel that what she had done all the while was worth afterall? Well, I've been waiting for days at least expecting no msgs, maybe at least can be shown in actions? Still .... I've waited for nothing.

Now there are many doubts filled within myself, I start to wonder, why did I do so much? Just merely to make one happy? But what do I have left for myself? Only pain and tears? would one even bother to feel my pain to fit into my shoes and not be selfish all the time? I feel so dejected as if nothing I did was right at all.

Appreciation is not merely by saying a "thank you", if you can do more for little things others had done for you, WHY not MINE ? I thought at least one would be awake that who's the one he should truly appreciate after all circumstances but somehow it still remains the same. Sometimes people just do not realise how important or precious is something, only after that it is gone and too late.

Maybe you're not the one. The one I've waited is one who tells me how sweet I am when I sing to him but not laughing and making fun of me. Maybe I've grown same does apply on my perception which is different from time to time. I wanted someone who truly cares and appreciate me, but not someone who do not realise the past mistakes and kept repeating it.

I had enough, enough of waiting, everything has exceeded my limits, I have got no grounds of tolerance anymore. I feel hurt, truly hurt deep inside my heart. If there's mistakes in life, why still keep repeating it? If you know the consequences of doing such things would create misunderstanding why still keep doing it? Don't you know you're hurting another person deeply, ruining another person's life, by little means of matters that is done?

I only had 2 hours of sleep last night and yet I'm still here typing. Ah who cares, whatever.

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Author **Suzanne** @ 1:35 AM Comments: 0

Sleepy, Tired

Does that explains my feelings now? After spending 2 weeks of late nights, one is to study another things is to complete those presents for one. I still have to take 2 more late nights and I'm done. I mean not really done, but at least can spend more time on sleeping. Wait wait my 2 assignments submission date seems only 2 weeks more, NO NO that's so bad.

That's all for today, will be updating soon after my exam on Tuesday ends and also when I got those pictures to upload in my blog. Love ya All, friends let's go Ganbate!!

Happy Birthday to all May babies. I'm lazy to mention all of them so just ya .... u know who are those people

Time to burn mid night oil.

You're not needed when you're useless
neither things that are done will be appreciated
Messages from me are meningful-less
They are not being read yet not being touched
Things from others worth tons more than mine
A mere thank you is never enough

Let me be and I'll choose a different ending of this story one day.

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Author **Suzanne** @ 11:52 PM Comments: 0

One just would not understand, and maybe never will

Let's talk about buying a product. How would a customer be satisfied after buying the product? which is to reduce the cognitive disonance to the minimum level. Customer delivered value = Benefits/cost. It same applies on human, which is how much you pay out, you would not be satisfied unless it had reach the satisfied level. Same goes for relationship, if one party is contibuting more than another, the other one would not be satisfied.

Draw an example, a wife bought the husband a Rolex watch worth few thousand while the husband just gave her chocalates, do you think she'll be happy? Of course not. Now you know why they say diamonds are women best friend ? LOL, the example does not make sense anyway.

Some say, "Even I've sacrifice so much, though I hope for nothing back from you."- How true is this statement, I cannot judge. Some will do without asking any repay while some is the totally opposite.

There are many ways of showing appreciation to another person. To girl, words may not be enough, a mere "Thank you" is just too common out the street. Everyone says thanks u everyday, expect for barbarians. Many would be glad if they receive such long msgs saying "Oh how much I do appreciate for what you've done, you're one that ...". Typically way for friendster kaki would be, DUH writing a testimonial, Lame? Well it's still a way of appreciation. For those who thinks that actions speak louder than words, giving a present would be good, or typically SOME actions that does imply appreciation. Body language plays an important part in our life, you see words through someone's eyes, and also gesture that will clarify things you're trying to say. - This is call non-verbal communication.

"Ring..." end of OTB and Marketing lecturer. I really did learn alot from college, yes especially from my lecturer Ms.Crystal, much real life experience she loves to draw to us during classes and sure it' effective. Look I've remember some... Yeah some things she thought on lecture.

- It's now 2:32AM yet I'm still awake.
- Sometimes I really do think that I'm doing much more than what I would get in return, which is scolding.
- In the verge of giving up tonight, or when I truly finds the one who understands, appreciate, cherish.
- It's just too much sometimes, my patients has limits, I'm not the same one again I stand for myself
- It's not my loss if I choose to leave, as it's your loss for lossing one good one, and will never find one again.

If I fail one more time in my relationship, everyone won't get to see the same me again. After one that's hurt too much, I guess it's time to change and play around.After being faithful does not work, what's the whole point of being one then?

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Author **Suzanne** @ 2:15 AM Comments: 0