Well I've not touch or update my blog for quite a while, I guess most of the people who started work don't really have much time to update on their daily life anymore.
Routine -> Wake up -> Work -> Go Home -> Tired -> Sleep -> Repeat
I guess the next thing you step home after work you're only thinking about sleeping .. unless weekends which I love the most. I can hardly adjust to the sleeping pattern these days even 2months had went passed, I still have a big problem coping and having serious insomia that makes me feel extremely tired and hard to concentrate the next day as I won't be able to sleep the whole night. Then insomia will lead my stomach to produce acid then lead to gastric and in the end I'm very sick. Then worse I've been coughing non stop these few nights, lagi no need to sleep.
I don't know why going to bed at night had become a fear to me, I kept thinking that I need to wake up at this time for work tomorrow and I end up not sleeping the whole night, waking up every single hour looking at the clock. This is really suffering. I only manage to sleep at 7 then half an hour more is to work, every time I feel so reluctant to climb up from bed, I feel so tired, feeling like a dead meat.
I feel very insecure when I sleep, like there's lack of something beside me, worries as if my mind refuse to put the day to end, to give me a rest .. I'm starting to feel weaker day by day ..
Someone save me please? Or I just miss him too much ..
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Random, hear me sing again, please don't get bored
The words inside the video can't be seen ...
These are the photos edited by me and please don't tell my company I know photoshop so that I can run away from doing extra work
Sometimes I just feel very emo and down ...
Graduation coming next month, gonna take 3 days off from work, too bad he can't be there ...
Will this relationship last until the end ... I don't know ... I don't have confident in myself anymore when problem arise ...
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I watched "Money Not Enough 2" last Tues, premier, ah finally I've stepped into a cinema after months, not that bad after all watching movie with friend, friend's punya bf and friend's punya bf's punya friend. Highly recommended movie for young people out there, teach you lessons not to dump your parents when they're old, and also for UNFAITHFUL guys, watch and learn how much a women can sacrifice even how many thousands mistake you all have repeated. Appreciate what you have now and not trying to gain more from what you already have .. In the end you will lose everything.
Recently, "chasing" after this series call "Ga Hou Yut Yun" aka "Moonlight Resonance" again the story started with unfaithful men, I seriously think that men is the least you can rely on in life, they cheat and they don't feel a single regret or anything at all but still feel that they're so right. AND the next things you know, the "Wu Li Zhing"(3rd party) is always the one getting all pride and being treated as the good one. No kidding, this happen in reality life. I'm the bad one, remember? Innocent? Oh please, no so. Nowonder so many girls had turned to lesbians these days. Sigh, I'm still waiting for the series after the 1st 12episodes.
Tak faham 1 : Why friends is always more important than anything else?
A guy can do so much for a friend, but when it comes to gf, it'll always be "I don't know what to do for u", "I have no time ok?", "I've already done alot, what more you want?", "Why are you always so demanding?", "You are so irritating", "Yes I already promise so I will do, just wait"(In the end of your life, you still get nothing), "Can you stop complaining for once?", "I've got no money ok?", "I'm busy with my assignments", "I don't have time to go out"
I can memorise all of them, but when comes to friends none of these will apply..
Tak faham 2: You really want to trust, but on the other hand there's so much facts that is not trust able, so?
I wish I'm a girl that I will pretend that nothing went wrong and swallow everything into myself and start learning how to trust because I lost such a big battle last time which I left a deep scar.
I just want to be myself and not hide, vanity
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Girl you are to me, all that a woman should be, And I dedicate my life to you always The love like yours is grand, It must have been sent from up above And I know you'll stay this way, for always
And we both know, that our love will grow And forever it will be you and me Ooh your life is sun, Chasing all the rain away, When you come around you bring a brighter day You're the perfect one For me and you forever we'll be And I will love you so for always
Came with me my sweet, Let's go make a family, And they will bring us joy, for always
Oh boy I love your soul, I can't find enough ways to let you know But you can be sure of course, for always
And we both know, that our love will grow And forever it will be you and me Ooh your life is sun, Chasing all the rain away, When you come around you bring a brighter day You're the perfect one For me and you forever we'll be And I will love you so for always
Ooh your life is sun, Chasing all the rain away, When you come around you bring a brighter day You're the perfect one For me and you forever we'll be And I will love you so for always
