Something has change but what it is ?
There's ... something that has been changed a few days ago but what it is? I'm very uncertain very confused. I don't have those type of feelings anymore where has it gone to? It's just different, just not right. Anyway, I totally have no idea what I'm trying to say at all. So forget it forget it forget it forget it.
I'm way too bored and I wrote this out
口是心非
每天晚上都会对我说我爱你
是出于真心还是习惯我不懂
每天只有我一个不停的付出
你有想过要再对我好一点吗
每天期待你会打个电话给我
可是你却从来都不会那么做
每天都会不停不停的想着你
你却从来都不把握放在心里
常对我都不闻不问
而你的口里只常提着她的名字
我听到都觉得好烦
好想再问你一句你还爱不爱我
你常对我口是心非
那一句是真是或假我都不知道
我的心里觉得好痛
我不想在听到你提她了的一切
难道在你心里 我只是一个玩具
觉得闷了烦了 就会把他扔在一旁
当你需要我来满足你 你就会要我
难道这些年来 我为你做的一切
你从来都没有感动过
你也永远都不会珍惜一些对你没价值的东西
Note: Do not take this lyrics for use without my permission. Note that I have a copyright for these lyrics as it is written by me.
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Waking up with no senses
Looking into the future, pondering, wondering what would I be after 2 years time when I graduate from my bachelor's Degree. How would my life be that time? I can't find out now, well it's not for me to know where am I going to be too. Life is uncertain, very uncertain, no one knows what will happen tomorrow, neither do I.
My life has been very uncertain all this years, there's dramatically big changes from school to college to degree. Other than that, there were also major big impact on something which I really do not want to mention here. Too many ups and downs which I'll never be able to forget now and then.
I've always wonder, what if I've choosen another path on that day itself would everything be different today? People would never learn to appreciate. No matter how much I've done for them, how much I really do care, it'll still be the same. The answer would be you are caring for me too much, you are irritating, you are controling me.
All along, I've just been a toy for friends, to them I would only have value when they can use me and eventually I've will be put away when they see no values in me. It's like when you are brand new, you are always fresh and they would always play with you, after a while they got bored with u and would throw u aside, total ignorance.
If I would leave this place for long, I would choose to do so. I would want to leave all the memories behind ... till then I have nothing left to say. If you would understand me more then you would definitely know what am I going through but too bad that there's no one willing to understand me at all.
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A wonderful birthday indeed
I'm kinda sleepy while writing this post. I had a great day though it is very tiring afterall.
Went dinner at Vietnam Kitchen last night, it was awesome but we were bloated after the dinner. The seafood salad was tasty, the six treasure and water chestnut drink was nice. Too bad that I forgot to bring my camera out last night. And this was the cost we had to pay .. I mean not me, someone else haha ..
The food there was definitely worth the cost, it is very tasty, trust me I'm telling the truth, go try it yourself. Why would you see so many people standing outside the 1 Utama Vitenam Kitchen waiting for seats? It's defnitely for the food. After we left at 8.15 there were still many people queing outside. Don't believe? Just walk across Vietnam Kitchen during the weekends.
Headed to watch the Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire after dinner, the "hotest" movie now. So many people are so desparate to watch this movie, especially those kids out there. I wonder why does it acquire parental accompany in US to watch this movie and in our coutry it's rated "U" ( Untuk tontonan masyarakat) just incase some people don't understand.
Anyway this is the funny part of what happened yesterday night while we were watching the movie ..
One couple came in and told us, "Excuse me, U've taken our seat".
Then I was like .. "What? NO this IS out seat, nah this is our ticket you see-la."
Took out his handphone and shine on our tickets and their tickets. " Eh how come double same tickets?" " Can we borrow your tickets-ah? We want to go out and complain"
10 minutes later a GSC worker came back and returned our tickets. LOL, how could they sold double tickets to people, gosh bad bad customer service (forgive me, I've been learning too much marketing) If we wouldn't be the one to come first for the movie, the one to leave would be us and not the other couple.
Went Sunway Pyramid to hunt for my "own" gift today but ended up found nothing there. Instead bought a present for someone else. Went home and headed dinner at "New Paris" (EH, Joshua it's chinese restaurant la, not French restaurant-la) New Paris, according to Joshua the name was misleading and he thought was some high-class french restaurant haha.
Food there was nice, not sure about the others whether do they like the food there. Thanks May and Shan for the wonderful necklace that matches the pair of earings I had and thanks Caine and Dewgem for the wonderful "American Chocalate". I love them alot, I mean the cake obviously. Headed Murni at SS2 "yam cha", my favourite mango special yum yum.
That's all for today. I'm exhauted I need some sleep, been out for the whole day. Now I feel like lying on my comfy bed and have a good night
sleep. Thanks everyone for coming =)
Hmm photo abit blurish, Nick, Me, Shan and May
Mick, Me, Dewgem and Caine
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2 down 2 more to go
Just finished my Principles of Management which is the subject I worried the most. I was so relief that I've gained 45/60 marks for management and it's confirmed. 5 marks to pass management. Yippie !! Anyhow I've written 8 pages today on my 3 hours of management exam. *right hand almost almost broke off* I do not know what did I wrote in my exam, I just wrote down whateva I know ... and keep writing ... keep writing.
I worried my law exam the most now which was on Monday. I did not have enough time to interpret those cases properly. I would need at least 15-17 marks in order to pass this subject. Hopefully I can make it. Past years there are 70% failure rates for this subject. I do not want to be one of them.
Two more exams to go which is Accounting and Marketing and I'm free for 3 months.
Now I'm sleepy and tired only slept 5 hours last night. Gonna take a nap ...
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Mistake. Cheer. Relief.
Many stood around the board. I pushed myself into the crwod. I couldn't be my own eyes. Gazing upon the notice board pasted with BUS145- Principles of Management Total Progress. Searching for my student ID 30429*** ( Sorry it's confidential ). I rub my eyes, smack myself on the face, am I really dreaming?
23/25 for group report? 7.75/10 for group presentation? Stated there " Compliment to Wei Jiang group with much effort contributed for the report"
The clock stopped ticking for a second, it's such a glory on that second, I couldn't believe it on that second. Afterall it was just a mistake to our presentation mark which I mentioned earlier. I was struggling to hard on Management, studying every night, just hoping to get a pass. Where now it's such a big relief to me. Thank God for that, maybe the mistake was planned by Him, to make me work harder since I'm so slack and lazy.
Countdown, 2 more days to finals while I'm still sitting down here blogging. Well I have to push myself to work harder, strive for better results,till then I better keep going. Law, law, law Exclusion Clauses, Promissory Estoppel, Frustration, Torts, Remoteness of Damages, I'm so sick of all this. I just need to have less sleep, suffer a few more days, then next week this time I would be enjoying.
If Li Shan, Tai Lou and Di di came to read this entry, I would like to thank you guys here for everything all of you had contributed, I appreciate it with my heart, thank u for being such a great group member, finally our hard work had showned.
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True Friend, So Alone
It was kinda long since I last blog. Kinda busy all these while with upcoming final exams. Scared scared .. Just finished my last assignment on Principles of Management one subject I worry the most among all. At least all the others subject I've collect some marks on hand, let's say I need most probably 15-20 marks for my finals in order to pass those subjects but not for Management. I've posted in the previous blog that I scored badly for my first individual assignment due to the marking by the Austrlia lecturer and yet today another bad news which is my group got the lowest marks for the presentation. Sigh .. *why how come cannot !! * There are groups that had done worst than ours, groups that speak out of topic. How come they even score highest than us ? Even lecturer told us our performance on that day was "not bad" ???!
Well forget about it. I've gotta work harder. Let's talk about true friend now. I've never had one in my life. None which I can really share my problems with when I really need someone there for me. Since primary school I'm know as the "shortie lil ugly girl". Just bcos I was so tiny last time and my classmates used to bully me and they just can't help criticising me.
I was in the top 3 classes during my primary school times. Students in so called "good" classes tend to look down on those from "middle" classes. However, I'm view as a "inferior" student to them even I'm in one of those classes. During my standard 6 school trip, those friends of mine from "good" classes do not want to mix with me. I had to mix with those students from "middle" classes since they rejected me so much. I found it much comfortable to be with those from the "middle" classes than those who thinks they are really so good and those being proud all the while. The techer actually thought they lost me during one of the visit to museum because I left my group of friends and joined those which I'm much more comfortable with.
Ah ... I've been rejected all the while during my primary school times no one really treat me as their friend. How about my secondary .... it's still almost the same. Except I've got 6 friends that I've always mix together but still I didn't manage to find one true friend. Until now .. there's still none .. True friend are those who really cares for you, and those who u really can share everything in your life with.
- Just because I do not like to talk, it doesn't mean I'm proud or arrogant -
- I'm weird, yes I'm in some ways, but it doesn't mean that I'm not friendly? -
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What ? My blog doesn't worth a SEN ?
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