Routine Life
I am starting to get kinda tired with this routine working life. Everyday feels kinda same to me whereby I wake up go work, come home, eat and sleep and there goes again another day. Also, days had passed me by faster than what I've thought especially working life.
Studying seemed to be much more interesting where there's peak periods where assignments and exam pours in and we rush to get things done. In addition, I also find that I have more time for myself and other things while studying. Everyday the clock hits 1am in just a few seconds. Again sleeping time for the night. No more karaoke session, shopping, eating and yam cha session when lecture is on MC or on leave.
Probably my job is pretty routine whereby all the time I see lots of data and figures trying to crack my brain putting them properly in excel sheet so that my client knows what I'm trying to say to her? Or probably listening to customer on phone or face to face scolding me from top to bottom because of the 1000 T&Cs listed down in the promotion? Or dumbos IT sales people that always figure out some way to give us more work to do? I can list you which IT Shops in KL that you DEFINITELY should not buy things. I won't say here of course, but personally if you want to buy IT stuffs go for MTCS known as Mobility Square or All IT Hypermarket. These are good companies that truly give consumer genuine price.
Another day, Wednesday ..
Well I wish that weekend can be longer, I wish there's work life balance here, I wish there's more leave/ leave loading here, I wish I have more than 24hours per day.
I will use 10hours to sleep. I can no longer sleep like last time, sleeping without waking up. I'm always awaken lately, I mean since I started working, I hardly fall deep into sleep and very sensitive to noise. I guess the last time I fell deep into sleep is when I was in Perth, where everything seems to be so quiet and peaceful.
Sunway Hospital this Saturday, wait no time to sleep again??
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Suzanne do not like Monday however love Friday
I do not understand why the weekends seemed to pass faster than what I've thought ..
I thought yesterday was just Friday, I still have not enjoy my weekend rest enough, I still want more days to sleep until 12pm when the sun is up on my head. I still need more time to get my things done. I am not pleased with Malaysia's working hours and there's no such thing is work life balance but there's something call "work until you die".
Please can I have longer weekends and more annual leave per year? I think Malaysia labour law sucks whereby there's too little annual leave given, as compared to the one I studied in Australia law, they have more for sure and eligible for one month leave loading.
Time to face the truth and meet up with the specialist and get something stuck down my throat. In the end still going back to 'high class' hospital which is Sunway Medical. 12hours no eating but drinking some weird jelly liquid? Oh no does not sound convincing to me.
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Ocassionally Doubt
At times I think ..
If you are really the one,
If we really can make it through,
If one day you get bored with me again,
If I fail to forget and got tired of the problem and decided to just find a fresh one without any broken memories,
If the sun does not rise tomorrow,
If I die in sleep,
If I'm sleeping halfway and the bed broke and fell apart,
If my dreams will ever come true,
If I can have bigger boobs and ass,
If I can own a business and be the "sleeping" CEO,
If I get married and I regret,
If I can sleep 10hours per day,
There's way too many IF I have in my mind.
Do you like girl with BIG BOOBS? Cleavage? Or showing their bras? How about NAKED?
Click to enlarge to photo for your own pleasure, I've seen with my bare eyes, I look back at myself, thinking .. Can I have such round?
Hypocrites?
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The Best Valentine's Day Present for Both of Us
Well, what will be the best Valentine's day present? Of course things you can buy without paying a cent? Even better when they're cash.
I've been waiting for the results ever since they called him up on Wednesday. I can't hardly wait for February 14 to come. Therefore, yesterday once we came back from Full House at NZX, I had a feeling that I must log on to www.thestar.com.my knowing that the results should be out by 12am.
So this is the best Valentine's day present compliments from The Star and SaSa. If you've read the Star today (14/12/09), you might found two full cover page about this contest.
After much discussion and we decided to save that money up for future, unless I need that money to pay of my medical fees.
"The most beautiful smile lies in the eye of the beholder where every smile brings joy into my life" ...
Every smile above is those time that we've spent together for the past 6years, there might be times that you're not around, but I'm smiling because I know that when you see those pictures of mine, they will also make you smile too. Concludes our journey from local to overseas, Genting, Redang, Langkawi, Japan and Perth. Those memories are all filled with joy which makes me carries out the smile which is from my heart. That's the main reason of the photo of you and me in the middle which brings meaning that I bring joy to the centre of your heart.
Yea, this photo actually brings a deeper meaning than what is written. Your smile has completed the puzzle in my heart.
Actually the below were all written for the MSN contest. I not so romantic to write poems. LOL.
He carries me up when I am down,
Brightens up my every day taking away frown,
One day I will walk down the aisle with that gown,
Saying ‘Yes I do’ to my dear Caine Browne.
You added LOVE into my life,
Bringing gloomy days to LIVE,
You are the LOVE of my life,
Where I will never let go as long as I LIVE.
Times we spent together will never be forgotten,
Indeed every part will be kept in our mind,
The LOVE between us will never be broken,
But LIVE to become a legend.
Distance makes the heart grows fonder
After one and half year of separation,
And many obstacles we have strived,
We passed the test of long distance relationship with distinction,
And finally tonight we are reunited
Happy Valentine's Day
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Living in A Miserable IT World
I'm not allowed to have a pet at home. So here's the option, just don't care and bring one home saying that someone gave to me, I can't abandon that dog alone, so I must keep.
Next, have you heard of Nintendo dogs? Yeah, just pat that dog with your stylus. Go walk your dog virtually too, so that you don't need to pick up shit and worrying that the dog might pee all over the place. Wait, the dog don't even chew. Teach the dog sit, lie down and whatever command that is possible. Also, buy accessories without needing the real cash. Besides, how about leaving the dog alone and don't bother about him/ner when you're busy. Miracle, that dog won't be dead.
That's how miserable I'm, whereby I only can play with nintendo dogs for an hour just to satisfy my thrist for a toy poodle. I need a life.
I'm sure that I will take millions of photos if I have a dog, cuddling, hugging, kissing, sleeping. Even more photo than those I've taken with my own bf or probably I will forget about him and even reject going out for movies and eating my favourite ice creams. In my opinion I really a creature as companion beside me since I cannot have my bf beside me 24/7 LOL.
Maybe a toy poodle can heal me?
Valentine's day is coming soon.
Bf : So what you want this Valentine's day?
Me : I don't know, everything I see in the mall I want .. which includes Majolica, Levi's jeans, purse, every nice dress I see, bra and panties, shoes, handbags ..
Bf : ...
Me : So what you want?
Bf: Nothing in my mind
Me : So don't need to buy anything la
Bf : OK
Bf : Where to have dinner on Saturday?
Me : Everywhere is pack and expensive
Bf : Eat "Kong Fu Chao"
Me : Har? Dowan la eat at home.
Ok. This year's Valentine's day is so interesting. Economy crisis. Save money.
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Medical Fees These Day is A Killer
Megah Specialist telling me endoscopy will cost RM165. No, she repeated again, RM1650. I was shocked, ok that's so costly, which is my one month salary. So should I eat grass next month? Still looking for hospital around but probably going for HUKM. Yes, you're right, government? Slowly wait ... until you die. Oh well, I will just wait for HUKM then, since my sickness already dragged for 2-3years? Hmm, just that these day coming back more often and I can't eat like a normal person.
I seriously do not know what's wrong with me? My stomach is there really something wrong? Or was mental that was playing a fool out of me causing the stress? I don't know. Really that's the reason everytime someone ask me what's wrong with me I can't give them a definite answer.
Uhh, this is so frustrating. Money is the most irritating one. Therefore, be glad that you're healthy.
I must win the contest. Please? 5k of money.
I'm glad of what I have now. Sorry for making you all worry for me.
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Life is so short ..
You don't even know what's gonna happen tomorrow, where are you gonna be or where are you heading to ...
Life is way too short ...
The only thing that hurts the most is the people around you who see you left earlier than them ...
Cut short I'll just tabulate moments I've enjoyed in my life until today.
I enjoyed kindergarten, although I always refuse to go up the bus. My dad cheated me and dragged me up his car when I was crying and shouting all the way. I was supposed to wear home clothes during children day, I wore uniform instead, I was so sad, I wanted to look pretty that day. Some boy on the bus almost strangle me to death, just because I was kind enough to pass him his bag.
Primary was never a smooth sailing 6years, indeed I kena despise kau kau during that 6 years. They say I look like Godzilla? Er ok, that's abit out. No one like to mix with me in the "smart" class, instead those from the other class are willing to accept me as one of them.
Secondary was ok, other than being more lazy compared to previously, therefore my results was like up and down all the time. I had my very fisrt boyfriend and the second one which is the same one until today.
Foundation year was like honey moon. Everything is so easy, even easier than being in secondary. Only thing is that many things happened during that year.
Degree was the hardest of all, I had to learn to give presentations in front of a whole lecture threater. Writting 15-20 pages of assignments, doing research until late hours at night. There's when my health started depleting. Year 1, I almost flung my management subject due to some reasons. Things happened over and over again and finally I can't take it and I broke down to a sickness that had followed me for years until now. I worked very hard through my 2nd and 3rd year, however dropping a bit more during the last sem of year 3.
As for my 21st birthday, I'm really glad for everyone who helped out and making my birthday party so memorable and filled with more than 50 people around to celebrate with me. Thank you for those who've gone so far to attend as well. Ahh, including all the presents and ang paus.
Although I was very sick during the holidays in japan but I never forget every moment. The cold rainny night under a umbrella, struggling to walk every step as I do not have much energy but still I was very happy. Disneyland is a dream come true. As if I've went back to my childhood.
The most memorable holiday still live in Perth.
Walking on the sand which is as soft as snow.
Seeing sunset by the beach, sitting on rock just chilling and being in the arm of your love one.
In short pure happiness is good for health. First new year that I've spent in oversea. Firework show for free is good enough.
I've fulfil most of my wishes actually which includes Disneyland, seeing fireworks, walking by beach and seeing sunset. I'm so easily pleased by such simple things.
I want to live life with no regrets, appreciating of what's around me as I don't know what's yet to come tomorrow, life is short, just do things that you think you will not regret, there's no wrong of spending more time with the one you love, than regretting to not spend the time that you could do when he/she is gone. - A sudden death of someone will make people around think twice about life.
Feeling reluctant to call up the hospital and arrange for endoscopy. I heard that the process hurts. There goes my this month salary. Actually more of afraid to see the results. I've been dragging for 3 years to be exact. I guess time to end the suffering and face the reality.
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Yes or No? Many will say you're out of your mind
Finally, the work and holiday visa between M'sia and Aus has come to effect.
I am considering to apply which cost RM500 or more? Plus I will need to show them I have enough funds to survive there. Whereby I need to produce 10K in my bank account. Also an return air ticket, I've been eyeing on this since years ago.
I'm thinking to leave here, I mean everything including job and family for a year. Next year to be exact. Going to an unfamiliar place, uncertain part time job for this work and holiday visa. Taking the biggest risk ever, to leave a permanent job and after a year finding back a job? Only thing I'm sure is that even working at McD there I'll be earning twice the amount.
Shan Shan, I know you have big dreams, so do I, if you're reading this let me know if you have plan to do the same as well.
Please don't say I'm crazy, I only live once in this life, I mean here on earth, I feel like fulfilling my every dreams here. Dream big, live life to the fullest?
Main reason is I love living in Australia. Just ask anyone who've been there ..
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