Saddess Merdeka
A merdeka day without fireworks? That's really sad huh ? I still remember last year I was standing right infront of Sunway Pyramid watching those beautiful fireworks right infront of me. I was experiencing my 1st time clubbing at bar flam though, it was fun, I drank 1 bottle of Carls and started to feel high ... but force to go home early. Sad sad ...
What if someone told u that he doesn't want to commit in a relationship after few years being with you ? and he was the one who wanted you back at 1st ? Sometimes guys just couldn't understand how hurt would the girl be ... I am still wondering what is the reason behind? Just 4 words " Don't want to commit" and end the relationship ? Why don't u tell me that 1 year plus ago ? It's the same thing u told me 2 years ago but u wanted me back? I'm so confused now... very very confused. But I'm very sure of one thing is that he had no feelings on me anymore.
Just wondering why guys can like I wanna love that time then love, don't love mah don't love loh ? Guys : So what ?! Do I look like I care about a damn Sh*T on you ? ur just my toy to play with when I need you and now I don't need you so just get off my way and I wanna be single.
Why I choosed him and not him that time and realise that it was a big mistake afterall ? It was too late to say all this kind of things now. It doesn't really matter anymore when people have no feelings on you anymore. They won't even bother about you la pls *stupid Suzanne ...
I'm sick .. real sick .. very sick .. sick
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The Felling of Giving Up
I felt this feeling within me. I felt like giving up everything I'm doing now. The road I'm walking on seems to be getting from broad to narrow. Branches from the trees are falling down to block my way and it's difficult to move it away. When you feel like talking to your friends about your problem, none are there for you. I understand that now, most of my close friends has their own life to go on with and we're no longer attached like what we used to be during secondary school.
I asked one of my friend " Can I borrow your shoulder to cry on? ". This friend agreed on it. I realise now my mind is fully loaded with so many problems that I wish that would never occur but it has happen to me once again. It's something I'm afraid of but I don't understand why it happen all over again... I only can say I'm very stressed up now and I'm really very afraid of somethings that I wish that would never occur. I really need a person's shoulder to lean on ... who'll be this kind friend of mine that doesn't mind if I cry all over his/her shirt? Need a big warm comfort hug rather than hugging a pillow everytime when I'm down ...
:: I just don't like looking or smelling food, totally lost my appetide due to too many stress. Maybe I should think of the consequences of being like that ? But I just can't help it ::
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*Scream*Shout*Die
This course is really so rushing ... I can't take the amount of stress anymore ... There's so many things to be done yet so little time ...
Marketing itself have 4 exams and 2 assignments.
Management have 1 individual research report and group oral presentation and 1 final exams.
Accounting have 2Exams and 1 Group assignment of analysing annual reports of company.
Commercial Law 4 exams also and no assignment.
All this subjects are all tough subjects. Exams after exams ... Assignments after assignments ... I'm gonna faint soon . I can't take the stress any longer ... Give me a break ! In the mean time of all this exams and assignments to be stressed of there are many other problem occuring too .. What am I supposed to do ? I feel so panic now ... Marketing and Law exams is on next week.
Australia Legal System and I know nothing about it ?! I don't understand what Golden Rule , words in france - Obiter Dictum, Starre Decisis, Ratio Decidendi &*!@#%#&*$&%#$@*blabbla ... *faint* feel like struggling myself . I feel like crying ... so stress !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've totally lost my appetide to eat due to too many stress and depresion ... I'm really very down ... I can't afford to fail, exams fees are killing me, my bank account left RM0 ?!?!?!?! What to do ?!!
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I want something called happiness
This is not an insult but this is what I feel ...
I want a bf that would insist of paying for me when I go out either for food, movie or what so ever, I'll pay him back but this is the basic responsible of a guy or u can call this manness in other country. Even my guys friend would pay for my drinks when I go out with them.
A guy who knows how to appreciate everything the girl has done for him. Who knows how to thank her for everything she has done and thought of doing something back to her and WILL do it. Who will give her surprises, who will bring flowers to her on valentine's day and her birthday, who plans a romantic dinner for special ocasions, who whisper in her ear telling her how much he loves her, who is proud to show off her gf in front of his friends, who looks into her eyes and tell her how beautiful is she in his heart, who will never do things behind the gf, who will never tell the gf that she's irritating, who will wipe her tears when she's crying and not telling her she very irritating when she cries cos this will make her cry more, who put her in his arms and share their problems, who will carry things for her, just tell me which girl doesn't want these things from their bf? NONE
I remember one night ... It was the longest night I've ever had although it's just a short walk at the noisy roadside. I was holding his hand so thightly, I was lying in his arms. I can't describe it ... It was too comfortable and it's the 1st time I felt so secured in his arms. Although he doesn't know to express himself well but holding the warm hand of his would be enough for me on that night. Although that dog was just a small gift but it's still with me until today...
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爱一个人真的好辛苦
拿得起放得下。 这句话说的真简单。如果对我来讲是那么的容易那就好多了。也许我不需要像现在那么的痛苦。也不需要每天晚上泪流满面也没有人会管。爱上一个明明知道不应该 爱的人，爱上一个永远都不会给我幸福的人。明明就有一个非常好的人在我面前，只怪当初不懂得珍惜，把这个人给放走了，也等于把自己的幸福给放走了。有些东 西过了就不可能回来了，人家已有了爱人，我明白一段感情被破坏的感觉是如何，因为我自己也是受害者。
Wondering why I'm using chinese today? Because every songs I heard from the radio the lyrics are so meaningful it seems that the lyrics contains words of how I feel. I was supposed to be asleep by 2AM yesterday but I choosed to listen to the radio before I sleep. I was listening to "Ai Fm"-Formal Di Wu Tai.
节目名字是“爱不打洋”。他说了一句令我领悟的话“是你的就是你的，不是你的你怎么去争取都不会是你的，是你的他自然会回到你的身边”。还有令一句让我深 深感触的话。他说要学会放的下，要不然两个人都会活在痛苦里面。听了几首歌，觉得非常的伤心，眼泪也不禁把枕头给弄湿了，听了一夜也哭了一夜。真的觉得我 的感情世界好灰。当初是他背叛我后还把我给甩掉，当我不禁爱上另一个人时，是他求了我好多次，甚至跪下来求我，说如果他没有了我他不象活了我才会和他在会 一起。一年多的现在他把我玩尽了，利用我来满足他的需求，有在一次想把我给甩掉。
想知道我对他多么的好吗？看戏每次都是自己出钱的。当他没钱用时，是我把钱借给他可是就从来都没有跟他要会过。他的生日我用买的和亲手做的6样礼物送给 他。做了一张非常漂亮的卡，用手折了一瓶星星，还用手在瓶子上画了图画，还有亲手缝的琐匙圈，亲手做的1000张的PUZZLE。我给他什么永远都是最好 的。可是为什么他却不懂得珍惜呢？我关心他，他却说我在管着他。我爱他，他说是我自己笨要爱他。可是当初是他求我的啊？！我真的心碎了。心里真的好难受， 好难受。
也许在大家的面前我们还是一对完美的情侣，可是里面却隐藏着好多好多不告人知的悲哀。我对他那么的好，他都不要，可能我在他心中永远只配做一只被利用和欺 负的小狗。可是至少可爱小狗有人疼爱，可是我呢？你们有人要爱我这只可怜的小狗吗？我真的付出了一切一切，可是却得不到任何的回报。要爱一个人真的那么的 辛苦吗？
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My poor SE K500i
This phone is only about 6months old and now the joystick is giving me problems. It was sent for repairing yesterday and took it back today. Hopefully it doesn't mulfunction again or I'll be very very angry.
I wish to have this phone now
This is the brand new K750i with a superb design. It comes with two colour. Call it stylish in Black and elegant in Sliver. It's a 2 magapixel camera phone with auto-focus. Looks like a phone when u hold it straight like what is shown it the picture above but looks like a camera on the back of the phone. It also support memory stick duo up to 2GB ( that's alot for mp3s, movie clips and photos ). I personally hear the sound quality today, it was extremly loud and clear for mp3s. It also come with basic technology such as Bluetooth, Fm Radio, 3D games and so on.
I guess I won't be able to catch up with the phase of the technology now due to money matters. New phones models are now packaged with more and more new technology. I guess I only can sit there and wait for a few years so that their prices would drop and I could get myself one too but by then there's more new technology ? Lol
The PTPTN form wish me all the best for getting this loan for my education
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Differences between college and school
It has reached the month of August in Year 2005, 4 more months to end this year? Time passes so fast, as if yesterday I was stil wearing my "baju kurung" during the perhimpunan every monday and was singing the national anthum. During that time, there were so many school rules to obey. While now, you can just dress up in whatever outfit u want to college (of course not to obsence), let down your hair, colour your nails as colourful as possible, wear slipper to college and no one will bother about it. Had u seen a person wearing so formal on top but when u looked down he's wearing a pair of bathroom slipper? Till then u must meet Mr.Chan
During school times, we can say that we're all "forced" to do our homework and now in college life we MUST do our work or we will fail our whole course of subject. There wouldn't be anymore guidelines during college life. Instead, if we don't understand what's the lecturer talking about we had to go find out by reading more books. Secondary life are all "spoon-fed". Teachers will give us as much guidelines as possible while lecturers only tell u what to do and u have to figure it out by yourself. Notice that we call lecturer in college instead of teacher and we call assignments in college instead of projects? It took me some time to call the lecturer sir/miss/madam/mr and not teacher ... I keep calling my lecturer teacher when I was in foundation studies . LOL ...
Hmm .. the next stage to come would be the working environment. I wonder how does it taste like in life although I did work as a part-timer before in shopping complex. But now I should consider my next coming exams for my Marketing and Law ... Sigh ... Law ? Australia Legal Studies which I don't even understand a single thing from it. So many courts and law out there *faint* and of course my up coming Management and Accounting assignments. This is college life, all about assignments and exams.
Is loving a person that difficult? You are willing to give out all the love to the person, just to see a smile from him/her ? Giving him/her the best of everthing in life ? But would u get the love you want? No answer ... Love is just blind
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There will never be another chance for ME
What had i done wrong all this while ? Why I'll never be given another chance if I ever did soemthing wrong ? There's so many questions in my head. What should I do next ?
Why to some people everything I do will turn into WRONGS ?
- Caring is wrong because it would be interpret as I am controlling the person.
- Loving would be wrong too becuase loving would make that person reject me.
- Being sick is wrong too because I don't know how to take care of myself.
- Can't concerntrate in my studies is wrong too because I'm the one who find fault.
- Crying is wrong too because it's very irritating
- Suicide is wrong too because the law said so
So tell me what can I do ? Everything is wrong here ...
Exam is coming soon and many assignments are ahead of me. But I just don't feel like doing anything at all. I really got no mood, and when a person is no mood, how's she going to do all these things? By forcing maybe ... maybe like how I force myself to be happy
= I miss FSB304, esp Joey, Joshua and Zhen Hui who are in different courses now =
= Crazy bunch of people here =
= Suzanne being so tired of her life =
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The feeling of Running Away ...
Each time I woke up from sleep, I just have a feeling of running away from myself. Sometimes as what I said I don't even know who I'm. Just wondering who's this girl here in the mirror that I don't even recognise her. " Who is that girl I see ..." Mulan's song ... bla not related at all. Maybe I'm really starting to feel tired about my stressful life of degree and some other problems that I do not wish to enclose now.
It's difficult to describe how I feel now, I just can't express it. I'm still the cheerful lil girl who talks loudly and laugh like crazy in front of the other people but is that what I feel inside my heart? Thanks to my bunch of crazy coursemates that never fail to make me laugh everyday on their stupid behaviour. Eg, jumping of the stairs from the lecture hall infront of 50 people? and making some dirty jokes everyday... *sigh* they are guys what u expect them to talk about other than those things ?
Handed up my 1st assignment today which is my group presentation and report for Marketing. I'm very glad that all of my group members was equally hardworking and willingly to spend much effort and hardwork on our report. Thanks Shan, May and our Tai Lou. Good job buddies. We've make it through our 1st group assignment, way to go.
Oh no many newspaperssaid that the wind would change direction on this coming Monday, haze please not come back ... I love to breath the fresh air now
= Photo taken in 3rd floor of KDU college last thursday =
= Photo taken on this Monday =
= Piece of blackforrest cake which contain love =
Don't believe ? Too bad you can't try, or you'll get to taste to feeling of love inside
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I'm so hurt .. so hurt ..
I was wondering what had I done that has made me into this kind of ending? All I did was love someone whole heartly ? Care about that person without realising that it would turn out to be controlling instead ? Why no one is willing to give me another chance ? another chance to start everything all over again ? He is not giving me any chances. I knew that break up would be soon to happen thing ... I knew that it would happen again, I knew I would end up in pain on that day I choosed to be with him. But I believe that he would change everything ... now I have to deny that human's personality is even harder than moving a mountain.
I'm very happy during this past one year ... I thought it would go on for two .. three and four.. and so on. I'm really happy... everything I went through this year. People might think that I'm just lying about my feelings just to gain the relationship back but truely no. Every happy moment I've spent with him, it's very difficult to forget. He's the only one to make me laugh when I'm down...
Now, every night there are moments are I felt that I don't even know who I'm. I don't remember anything at all. In my mind there are just questions about who I am and why am I here ... Running away from truth ? I really don't recognise myself on that moment, I was wondering why am I this person here ? and who's she ... I'm lost ...
All I ask is to be happy and to be love the one I love ... but I knew it's impossible ... I can't stop thinking of it ... help me ...
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Story about a girl ...
This girl lives a happy and cheerful life before some unhappy events taken place. She thought that her bf was someone that will never betray her. She really thought so ... but until one day she found out that he had a crush with some other girl and he was hiding behind her for quite some time. She suffered through all the bad times which lasted more than 5 months. She had went pass so many painful experiences during this 5 months.
Crying each night hoping that the guy would want to be with her again, wish to hear "I love u" truely from the guy's heart, wish that the guy would wipe her tears for her when she cry, waiting for the guy to come during lunch break everyday, looking upon the star with eyes full of tears, wish that could lie in his arms and hold his hands once again...
she was so hurt and filled with anger that time, but all she thought of was treating the guy better each and everyday and he would return to her.
Everyday she must figure out some questions to sms or to call him, just to get a reply or just to hear his voice through the phone. She only hopes to see him at least once in two weeks time. She would do anything just to make him happy. When he was sad she never fails to be with him to comfort him and give him support and offered to help him. She still buys him an expensive gift as his b'day present even he's no longer her bf. She never say a word when he let his anger on her because his own problems even it's filled with rude words. Everything she had done is from her true heart and she does it just to win the guy's heart back.
Finally all this patience had gave her back this guy, a guy that love him once again. The guy finally realise how much he love and needed her after he found out that there's another guy after this girl. The girl had choosen the guy she had been patience for, she was giving him one more chance to love her once again. From that day she was with him again, she knew that the guy would hurt her again one day. But why she choosed him? One word, love, because she really love him so much until she's willing to give this guy a brand new chance to treat her better in the future. She even trust that he would change for her, she believe that this guy really love her now with all his heart.
One year plus had past. She thought everything is perfect and everything was going fine. They were very happy during these one years. They spent many precious times together. Suddenly one day, this guy is being uncertain about his feelings for this girl again. Tears shed from her eyes, drop by drop onto the keyboard, heart shettered into pieces, she can feel the pain as if there's a knife being stab deep into her heart. Two word from the guy, "my fault". But do he knows how much pain this girl has to bear on to all this years? Being patience with him? Trusting him that he'll love her with his true heart? Loving him all this years from her true heart? Sacrificing things for him? Taking care of him? Helping him when he's down? Trust him when everyone else doubt him? Bringing him joy and happiness all this years? Protecting him from getting hurt? Did he ever thought of all this before he said something that hurt her so much? Did he forget all those times they had been together ?
What has the girl done until she deserve all this pain in her life? She's just 18 years old... Why he'll never give her the love she wants instead of hurting her numerous times and pushing her away to other guys when he don't love her anymore? He only wants her back when he needed her so much but after that one year time he decide not to want her anymore? Is this fair? why is the girl always hurt no matter what she had done for the guy he loves? All she wants is true love from his heart ... she only love him ... why ...
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Took a online test
And the results are ...
You have many signs and symptoms of asthma, see your doctor as soon as possible. Hmm... I was like this since A year ago, I thought it's normal. Erm, I was fine for A year past so should be fine also, no need bother-la Do I have all this symptoms ?
- Breathing changes- Yes
- Sneezing - Yes
- Moodiness - Yes
- Headache - Yes
- Runny/stuffy nose - Yes
- Coughing - Depends
- Chin or throat itches - No
- Feeling tired - Yes
- Dark circles under eyes - Yes
- Trouble sleeping - Yes
- Poor tolerance for exercise - Yes
- Tightness in the chest - Yes
- Shortness of breath - Yes
- Difficulty talking or concentrating - Depends
- Walking causes shortness of breath - Yes
Oh no so many Yes for me ... die loh die loh hahaha
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5 Hours of Karaoke
Yesterday was so called "get together" night with all my close secondary school mates. We started singing from 9 until 2AM in the morning. The karaoke room in SC's house was cozy and comfortable for 12 of us to fit inside. Too bad the karaoke system was shifted out yesterday due to some maintanence problem and we had to keep changing CDs in order to sing those songs we want. Everyone enjoyed through out the whole night ... with the supplies of 5 mics in the room for 12 of us.
I sang and sang and sang even my voice was half gone due to the haze but I just couldn't stop myself from singing when I hear those lovely songs. And there'll be one particular person singing non-stop everytime we sang, which is CK. Many of us love to make fun of him but he won't bother about what we said at all.
After that, SC offered us some rasberry vodka+sprite and blueberry vodka+coca-cola. The rasberry+sprite one was nice, I guess I've drank more than 7cups and ended up home with my face blushing. Well, we hardly get together after we graduated from our secondary school. Most of us are in different colleges now and some will be leaving for overseas. I really miss those times which we're so playful... Had tuitions together and we'll sing karaoke after tuition... Gossping around bla bla bla. If I could turn back the time, I would track down those special memories and stored it in my mind.
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Haze has cover the whole PJ
The view of the whole PJ area today was totally blur. According to The Star,
burning hotspots in Sumatra have caused air quality to deteriorate since Saturday afternoon (The Star, 8th August 2005) The bad news would be the haze will not be going away anytime soon due to the dry weather and South-West Monsoon winds bringing dust and smoke from Sumatra to Malaysia. The visibility of PJ town today was less than 1KM. Most of the landmarks are blurred out by the haze and many people were also seen wearing masks when out on the streets.
College's cafeteria- a place where students love to hang out to have thier breakfast and lunch, was also filled with haze today. Currently, I am down with flu and cough cause by the haze but I can't be locking myself in the house everyday because there are classes to attend in college.
These are the do and don't suggested by The Star,
- A view of KL filled with haze -
Breathing in the haze was bad enough while one of my coursemate had just started smoking right in front of me today. I couldn't believe that this particular coursemate which I knew since foundation studies about a year plus ago would smoke until he took out a cigarate and started smoking in the car while sending me home. I just couldn't understand the reason he smokes, which he claimed is due to stress. Well, nowadays most of us in this world face stress but why don't I see many of them started smoking? Most of my friends and cousins claimed that they are social smokers. What is social smoker ? Social smokers smokes because they want to feel "in" while hanging out with their friends. They would felt left out while seeing all of their friends smoke. So, they smoke due to social purposes. In my oppinion, smoking would not only be lethal to the smoker, but also to those around them. Imagine, your wife is pregnant and you are smoking next to her everyday. Don't you ever thought of the health of the loved ones beside you? And you yourself one day which your lungs are all polluted by carbon monoxide and tar, would end up in what kind of health conditions ? For me, I wouldn't want a bf that smokes becuase I can't stand the smell and moreover, I wouldn't want to walk with a bf that stinks with smokes all over his body.
Done commenting on smoking. I guess I should start preparing for my marketing presentation which would be on 9AM tomorrow morning.
:: I would appreciate it if some people would stop commenting on my English. Well, I might not have excellent English nor I know how to use some bombastick words in my blog but at least the way I present my blog would enable other people to understand what am I trying to say. I'm in the process of learning, well, it's supposed to be everyone is in the process of learning. There's one sentence in chinese " Xue dao lao, huo dao lao". I might not reach the excellent part of the english now but I'm still working hard to improve it. So, if some of you think that this blog's English is not up to your standard, kindly please leave. No one is forcing you to read this blog if you think that my quality of English is that bad. At least my english is way better than SisterFuRongJieJie's right ? Don't believe take a look at this blog ->
clickWhile the grammer mistakes part is unavoidable because I don't spend like a few hours checking on grammer errors on this blog. Provided I'm someone who hates arrogant people showing off how good they are infront of people. Thanks ::
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最近比较忙所以没时间
有些自以为非常聪明的人，很喜欢说人家的不好。可是最终也不是自己最笨。因为他们啊，连华语都不会读。所以你说做人那么自大干吗？ 他们连最基本的语言都不明白还要以为自己很厉害一样。我觉得这些人还是慢慢回家学会礼貌和华语吧。
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A song name A moment like this
What if I told you
It was all meant to be
Would you believe me,
Would you agree
It's almost that feelin'
That we've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come and now...
A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Everything changes
But beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I maybe dreamin'
But 'till I awake
Can we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share
For a moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this...
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people spent two lifetimes,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
OHHHH, LIKE THIS
OHHHH, YEAH, 'cuz people search for every moment yeah.
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this.
Ohhhhh, like this.
:: Would I ever to get spend A moment like this with my love one,
one day in our future ? Do I need to wait a lifetime for all this to
take event ? Had I found my true and love one ? ::
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Relationship, would it last ?
Imagine you asked ur love one do you really cherish our relationship and he/she can't answer ?
What would u feel deep down ur heart ? Don't you feel that he/she don't even cherish you at all if he can't even answer a simple question like that ? Don't u feel so heart broken ... I've told myself to be strong, to believe in him . I did, I really did try my best but I couldn't lie to myself that one human's behavious couldn't change unless something BIG evolves in their live. Eg : Married ... blabla. Izzit really true that guys doesn't understand what GIRLS are thinking? and they do not like to be question ? After being quite long in a relationship, they don't often tell u all those things like "I really care for you ..." because they assumed that we girls already understand it ? Come on guys, it's totally the opposite, girls love to hear it .
I'm wondering why the limits of my patience is so high? I've been patience for all this years no matter I'm being scold and rejected so badly. There's many more things that I had to keep in my heart and not meant to be told to anyone.
Guys out there, let me teach u how to make girls happy ...
-First of all plan and give her a surprise during her b'day or anniversary
Buy her something she likes also , dunno what she likes ? Go shopping more often with her then u'll find out.
-Hold her in your arms and tell her how much u really love her
-Wipe out her tears when she's crying instead of scolding her
-Listen to her when she's trying to tell u something
-Kiss her in the cheek and tell her u love her
-Give her a peck on her cheek when she feel asleep (she's just pretending-la stupid, waiting for u to action only)
-held her in your arms infront of your friends (she would feel so proud)
-call her up just to tell her how much u miss her ( no credit then sms loh)
-look into her eyes and tell her how beautiful she is
-make her know that how much u really cherish her
-write her a love letter
-DON'T ever try hiding ur relationship with her, why afraid to let people know about it ?
-Remember those happy times you've been with her
There's many many more ways to make a girl happy ... too lazy to list everything out
:: Hopefully my group would do well in our presentation next week ::
:: Hate commecial law, I understand nothing about it ::
:: Weekends are here, cheers, no class can sleep late ::
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Photos taken from Genting trip ...
These are some of the photos taken from my previous Genting trip ...
- A string of cable cars -
- Sitting in the cable car -
- Wonders of First World Plaza -
- All in jackets -
-Asia's 1st Flying Coaster, it's expensive but worth trying -
- I'm right on top of the mountains -
- Paddle boat, it's fun but tiring -
- Smile for the camera =) -
- Cheers -
- Background of artificial Rome + flying coaster -
- Li Shan + Me -
- Breezing cold night spent @ Starbucks Genting -
- Night view from hotel room -
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Is This the Right Path ?
I've been thinking and wondering about this problem since like months ago ... Did I really made a correct decision in building up this broken relationship again ? Once the relationship of the couple is broken is really very tough to be build up again. Especially times where girls are really hurt badly by their love ones. First of all, trust, would be so hard to gain from a broken relationship. It's not that I don't want to believe that particular person but it's the outcome of what he had done for the past that fears me.
Fears is the main problem for me. Fear of getting dump again and crying every night for like 2-3 months hoping that I could mend the broken relationship. Yea I really did went through hard times during those days ... Tried to push myself not to think about anything by working hard everyday and fill up my days with busy jobs and activities. But seeing couples holding hands, cuddling in each other arms had made me felt worse while I was working. Even tried forcing myself to eat alot and alot .. It works, I ate one big packet of fried rice for lunch+cheezy wedges+ chicken wings ... Waited everyday during my lunch break for someone I would hope to see but ... the outcome is ... no he did not appear. Long story to go ... bla bla bla
Somehow I took up the courage and decided to choose back the relationship which I was once hurt badly. But why ? Everyone asking me WHY must I choose back the same relationship that might end up in the same situation I faced again ? I could say that 99% of my friends don't wanna see be to be hurt badly again ... and they told me not to go back to the previous relationship I had. But I refuse to listen ... WHY ? I can't give any valid reasons until today ... Most probably I'm so in love with that particular person ? or I'm so use to being with that person ? It really took me alot of courage to make this final decision while I was struggling on which path I should choose about one year ago.
Decision made and no more turning back again ... What had past had really went past ... I could never turn back the time and change it anymore. Maybe I'm really a girl that's so difficult to be understand ? But ... all I want is to be cherish ? I would definitely love it if someone could like show me off infront of his friend that how proud is he to have me ... or write whateva things about how much he really love and care for me ... That's most probably what girls want ? Want their bf prove that how much he loves her ? What to do ... this is the nature of we girls ...
:: Marketing presentation next week, countdown to 6 more days ::
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Finally I've detected the damn PROBLEM
WORMS ... WHY are there WORMS in my computer ?!! and for those who doesn't know ... WORMS is a type of VIRUS ... I don't visit pornography sites .. I hardly download stuff expect for MP3s, lecture notes and play some games like Jewel that's all ? I don't even play online game and I even check my mails in college computer cause too afriad of virus striking my computer again and again ... horrible !!!
I wonder who so kind planted some worms in files I downloaded or I dunno where izzit from .. ARGH ! One word I'm *PISSED* ... Had been figuring what's wrong with my computer for like 2 weeks ago and now only I found out it's worms cause my damn anti-virus can't detect (belum update) after update pulak ... detected the virus but cannot quarantine or delete ... The damn worms just crawl in my computer whenever I start to use my Internet ... SIGH
It'll cause my Internet connection to be so slow and using up alot of bytes to sent out I dunno whateva thingy ... Wormy Wormy Wormy ... how do I get rid of you this irritaing piece of crap inside my computer ? Can't u just vanish forever ? I need to use the Internet to do my work u know Wormy ? SIGH
:: Management class today keep teaching us how to be a suscessful Manager or CEO :: He asked us to list the richest man in the world. So, we told the lecturer Lim Goh Tong. He say "ah? huh?" and gave a blur look to us wondering who's that?! Alamak ... Genting owner pun tak tahu ?
:: Accouting class super boring, lecture sound like robot and keep saying "OKAY" ... which sound exactly like robot ... zzzzzzzZZZzzz
:: Tmr marketing in class quiz :: Studied Chapter 1, hopefully I can answer all the questions tmr even though it's not counted as part of the exam marks ...
Looks like marketing is the most interesting subject and easy-to-understand subject among all the others ... Commercial Law is tough ... This was part of my tutorial questions
1. Should anti-terrosrist laws that suspend basic human rights to be introduced in Australia ?
2. Does any country have a right to start a war against another that it acusses of having weapons of mass destruction?
the others questions are like explaining laws and many different courts in Western Australia
TOUGH ? DIFFICULT ? UNDERSTAND ? this is what I need to study for Commercial Law and imagine I'm only in Year 1 ... how much more difficult would be the Year 2 subjects ?
Oh haze was terrible ... walked out to lunch and came back with headache after that ... and everyone almost feel asleep in class cause breath in too much dirty air ...
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