I am used to ....
Sitting alone, without anyone beside me ..
Going home every time, when I have nothing to do ..
Shopping alone, without hearing much complaints ..
No more late nights out for mamaks and movies ..
Less arguments, because we've not met for months ..
Hanging out with friends, without need to consider much ..
Being close to guys, without worrying someone would get jealous ..Finishing a bowl of food or leftovers, as I'm a small eater ..
Reloading my phone so often, my credit depletes every week ..
Sleeping for long during weekends, as I have no where to go ..
Going online, turning on the web cam every night ..
Doing things alone and carrying heavy stuffs by myself ..
Going most places by my own ..
Keeping things to myself, rather not tell at times ..
I still over worry at times, however not as bad as previously ..
Still yet to forget ..
Hmmm, this one and half year time I've really learned to be much more independent. Good test. Distance. Might bring good or bad.
Distance makes the heart grows fonder? I only know that I've learned a lot, from appreciating to cherishing friendships. Knowing that life is not only about your partner but never completes without friends and other activities in life. Learned of how to trust one more. Learned when will be time to let go and not exert control. Knowing times when you have things around that we should cherish. Waiting will bear much fruits.
I need to get use to things in life and learn how to get a balance between things.
Wait, new year resolution? To find a new job, to be in one of the leading company's marcom team.
Till then, Blessed Christmas.
Remember Christmas is not about Santa, Trees, Presents and whatever decorations. Those are just a plus to add on for this joyous occasion we celebrate. Remember the true meaning of Christmas, is the born of the savior of this world, where God had send His one and only son to redeem on our sins.
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Today is a bad day
I'm still so tired from PC fair. After effect still lacking of sleep these few days. People say economy is bad, I really doubt so, they spend like water in PC fair and they don't even consider which is more of impulse buying. Something like people buy then I buy, people say cheap I think cheap. Food there is so expensive. Plus, my kedekut company is not paying for allowance at all. Sigh, can you imagine? They asked you to go work but they're not paying allowance for both transportation and food. I seriously think that is a total nonsense. Guess what? Money earned by the company is not to reward employee but all went to that daugther's LV bag, branded clothes, shoes and whatever fashionable thingy she's wearing.
Nowonder, all of them left. 8 among 25 left in 1 month. Added another 2 today .. Seriously there's something really wrong with this company. Still, they're not willing to do anything but keep thinking is the employee's fault. Just like what they normally practice, they take pride in good things and for bad things will blame all on the employees.
Lately, I'm getting so fedup of my promo. Website is giving too much problems. I receive tons of complaints every day, imagine people scolding you everyday for nothing even not your fault. Sucks to be front line, those behind IT people only will say "LIMITATION" can't be done and some rubbish like leave them la, if they don't want us to help then their problem. That's how they instructed to treat consumer. If that was you will you be happy of the outcome?
I would say XX company, one of the leading IT company in Malaysia, products does not sucks but people who manage is like .. irresponsible.. everything will be last minute and expect you to do everything for them, if you don't then you will be blamed. Whatever, they say you have to listen because they're clients. Aparently, they are not IT savvy at all. I can ever answer IT troubleshoots better than they do .. seriously ..
Just can't wait to leave for my long holiday and leave this memafankan promo aside. Whatever that's gonna happen that time I'm not gonna bother and my handphone will be off to prevent people from calling me for work related stuffs. Things are until the point where you feel very "Pek Chek", cannot tahan in malay-english.
Looking forward to next week, very happy during weekend and long holidays. Reason? Probably I'm not satisfied with my job, no career advancement, unpleasant working environment, rude people around .. like fat bitch, I only will say such thing when the person really offended me a lot. My new year resolution is to get a new job which I will be in the MARCOM team for the company.
Love of my life, T-shirt story creation
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When that day gets closer ..
When that day gets closer, I have mix feelings though, one is happy that we can finally see each other again after so long and after more than 1 and half year of waiting here and there, however .. I'm afraid that the more we see each other, there tend to be more arguments while we're doing things together. Eh, wait .. if that happens means no way I can get married with this person?
Another thing is that distance with friends will be further when I'm no longer in "single" life, I want to get a balance between relationship and friends. I do love the company of friends and not BF all the time. I used to be a person who sticks to bf 24/7, but seriously this can't work. Either ending up fighting too much or get bored seeing each other.
Next is that I'm getting so use to this "single" life now, feeling that kind of freedom to do things I want, even getting close with guys and there will be no one there to stop me. Haha, the last one is just kidding. Of course when your bf is around, there's more limitations =P Also, I kinda enjoy being "single".
Back to work again, after a long weekend, anyway doesn't seemed long at all, time went by way too fast when I still feel like I did not have enough rest. Maybe just like what others said, I cannot find anything that interest me on what I'm doing now. Hello? Well, how can I get interested with data entry, consignment note(writing people details on courier papers), cutting papers, wrapping gifts to courier out, sourcing gifts .. I want a place that I can use my creativeness. However, looking at the market now probably I should just live with what I have, good enough.
I DO NOT FEEL LIKE WORKING THIS SUNDAY.. anyone coming to PC fair KLCC please look for me and take me away. Don't forget to buy me food, they don't provide me food and I need to pay for on my own there. Seriously, this company kiam siap until nothing to say .. Even LRT fares also they're not willing to subsidise when you are going there to work for them.
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Suzanne shouldn't say anything ... OR face the consequences
I remember once in primary school, my friend were supposed to send something to office or so, then I said to him "Later you'll fall into the longkang..". He came back cursing me, "I FELL into the longkang .. your stupid mouth..".
During the match between Brazil and I forgot what country, when FIFA was held in Japan and Korea, someone asked me so what's the score, I simply said "Aiyar (that country against Brazil) so paria, ok la 6 v 2 la". Then the score came out exactly. Continuous a few times, I guess correctly on the score and the score is just right.
Then a few more times, in secondary and also college I also said some stupid things and coincidently those things came true or happened. Hm, about this one maybe you can ask my 3 kawans in college I forgot what happened, I think I said the lecturer is sick no class kinda thing and so happen he really fall sick, was that Dr botak?
Last Sunday, upon flipping the Star newspaper in Anna's house, I saw a news "Monorail brokedown, KL cramp with people". So, I just out of no where said "Haha, someone is gonna stuck there and be late". I thought they got that fix on Sat? I wonder how come the incident happen again on Sun? Thanks to my mouth.
Nope, I'm not saying I have super powers or what .. There's no such things, because God is only the one who knows everything. Just saying all this to release my super duper stress day from work. At least I have something to laugh on. I've shown a crappy face the whole day.
No lunch for me today, those transporter came and ship goods into the store at 1p.m. yes during my lunch time, I was squatting down in the old dirty store for more than an hour with no food. PC fair things is making me go crazy. I don't even have time to go toilet today. I didn't even have time to look away from the laptop but just merging and merging the damn forms.
I'm starting to feel that my life is getting more miserable from this super duper kind of stress, now I understand why so many ppl resign from this company. The working environment is very demanding, stress as in you don't even have time to breath or go toilet. Clients always want things one day before but never give enough time. On this month or last month, 4-5 ppl had submitted their resignation letter. Someone kill me please, I'm starting to hate working life again.
Well, making the day worse .. when you felt like having someone to talk to, that person is never there and the next thing you know is just a bye and hang up.
Besides that, I'm still deciding ..
Someone help me make a decision ..
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