Susubear Little Inn: Change

Seeking My True Self

Saturday, August 02, 2008

Change

I realise the more we grew up, the more things had gotten apart from us, those friends and everything we use to have while we were younger are no longer there. Finally, it will only be us one person left alone.

People change too, very fast I would say, this moment they could be a loving one, the next moment you know, you don't eve know who's that person anymore. Why suddenly I feel so tired of everything, as if I don't really want to care about anything anymore, probably just tired of living a life that I forgot how to smile. Maybe just feel tired of giving out all the time, just hoping that in return there's someone that would do the same for me as well.

For now, I just want to start work and concentrate and also give my best in this new job. Whether or like it or not, I will have to work hard for what I want in life, I can't be that selfish all the time ... my source of income is really important.

I only know, the more I ask for something the further it'll go away from me and the more it will hurt me as well. Since I really can't change anything with all I've done so far, what more can I do? Even I use force things are not gonna be happy. I can only choose to leave it or hope for better to come.

Sometimes, it's good to be selfish, I wish that I can be like that as well, always being selfish and doing things for myself only, but the fact is that I can't ... I realise it's my generosity towards a person that make myself unworthy.

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