忧郁
我是个爱情的失败者，我输了给自己把握自己拖进忧郁中
一次的忧郁症，已经把我拖累整身
你可乘要弥补你对我的过错
你们两个可知道你们的所作所为可能把我都毁了吗
我想说可是你可乘会听吗
为什么我们每次说到她你就对我大发雷霆呢
你真的有是着忘记吗
我敢敢的告诉你我不想再听任何跟他有关的事
为什么每次都为了她而吵架
你可以从此在我生命中消失吗
要不然走的人就会是我
我不想起来面对每一天，我只想睡永远都在我的梦中
忧郁从来都不放过我，可能有一天你已经发现我已被它带走
你说得容易因为你从没经过我的经历
你不明白我的痛苦，还要重伤我
我不想面对明天，只想逃到梦里永远都不起来
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I am tired
Tired from this life yes pretty much, facing the four walls everyday, or the square box no social life no entertainment. Even you play the sims the characters would die suffering from no social bar turning red and going crazy, there's where the state I'm in now.
All my life these days are only assignments and it's like never ending story. I've never stepped into a cinema for months nor I did stepped into a shopping complex for 1month? Or probably some just pretend they didn't see me because I didn't appeared to be a friendly person to them.
First my computer spoiled few times, enough, lately virus infected, cleaned, all I wish to is so that I can talk to my dear at night. But no things fail me one by one and it's getting worse and worse each day. The last mean of source that I can talk to him, must be taken away too ? Kill me.
What now what do you want me to do? I want to stand up, but things around me keeps failing me until the state where I can't take it any longer. I'm tired I just want to sleep through the days.
I don't want to wake up to face the day.
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Confirmed Brain Dead
Everyday is pack with numerous assignments, never ending ones ...
The most difficult part is to critique other group's presentation contents in 30min which is required by the unit. So do you think my brain can work that fast?
Besides, the Doctorate lecturer hates us girls so much that everything we do no matter right or wrong he'll definitely disagree with us kau kau. I don't understand, does it mean you have a title so therefore you have the rights to discriminate students by calling us bunch of stupid donkeys? After that he'll say something like "Don't go commit suicide due to my comments". When his moods is sucky you'll need to adapt to his mood like what other says in cantonese "Tai Lei Min Sek Zhou Yan". Today he scolded some of them saying "Do I need to invite you to sign the attendance?" while others are busy giving presentation. Unreasonable.
I thought we paid thousands for one semester to study but indeed this college where I can't wait to leave soon they had chased off all the good lecturers, most of them resign due to the mistreatment. Or in this kind of case where the students will go make a complain, the management wouldn't bother to do anything at all. So please don't listen to those sweet counselling when you enter college asked those who's inside. Claimed to have a super fast internet which is like a tortoise which take like hours to load a page. This is definitely not a good place to study, sorry but I'm really dissatisfied, maybe before this college offers Business programs instead they SHOULD learned how to run a business, or just sent them all back to study Service Marketing. Learn how to serve your customer well.
I find many who has the title of Dr is being so proud of themselves, why? Does it mean that you have more knowledge then you can discriminate? You teach us ethics but do you practice them?
After leaving this college I would only say thank you to a few lectures which I'm not ashame to mention their names, Ms Koh (foundation studies) helped me alot in Maths, Ms Crystal a very experienced lecturer, Mr Sudarsan who's willing to help students in any circumstances, Ms Hana and also Ms Cheah my current law lecturer who makes law an interesting subject by adding jokes.
Stress with assignments.
I've gained an good experience which is not to download anymore magazines online. I'm odd I like to collect magazines especially Japanese one.
I want ...
The pink Elianto brush set, RM50 cheap compared to brands like MAC costing RM500
I love the Kate Dual Carat so much but it's so expensive RM40+ for an eyeshadow
I Squeeze, everytime also go 1u to sit for free I want one at home
... what also I want I should start dreaming ...
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Busy weeks from now onwards ...
Time flies it seemed so fast that I'm reaching the end of my semester soon again in one month time. One I'm happy because this means I'll be meeting my dear again where he'll be coming back soon. However, this means it'll be the end of my studying life for now, I'll be stepping out to the working world. Assignments are all around the corner yet I'm still slacking, lazying and procrastinating.
This is my week8 and just flew away like that ...
Week 9: Report and Critique report to hand up (2reports)
Week 10: Presentations and reports for both units SMkt SMgmt (2reports+2presentation)
Week 11: Empty
Week 12: (Worst week ever) Final report due Smkt, Smgmt, Law research paper (3reports)
Week 14: Start of final examssss ahhhhh
Soo packed with assignments from this week onwards, what Hari Raya holidays there are not holidays at all. First all the datelines are together, then imagine how on earth a business student like me knows how to do a law research paper? Year 3, really business course is not as easy as what you think at all. Most of the reports are around 2000-5000words where the worse case scenario is for SMgmt which is 20pages around 6000words.
Then followed by exams on 20th(Hey, why on my bday leh?!), 29th and 30th
Don't know why Murdoch always place my exams on my birthday, sheesh, but nvrm at least I get to celebrate on that day after my exam.
I've got a super long wish list =P First I want a new handphone(this one battery last less than 24hours), then a laptop, a new pair of colour contacts, the set of pink brushes from elianto, the baked series collection from elianto, beautiful shoes, bag and clothes hahaha ... trust me the list will never end. Not to forget also I need money for traveling =P Most probably celebrating my 21st birthday at my Gombak's house.
Sometimes we just don't understand why such things happened, God will be the only one who knows the true reason behind, why such a kind and good person deserve all this kind of suffering. Well I believe that He has a purpose behind things.Please pray for Aunt Irene. I felt so heavy hearted seeing her cry infront of me. I don't know what else I could do at that split second, I could only wipe off those tears. I can't imagine how much pain and suffering she went through deep inside. Every week when she sees me, she'll ask me how am I doing. But why ... such a kind person ... Sigh, feels so sad, just feel like giving a big hug.Anyway, my dear over there, worry not it's only 1 more month until you're back here again. I'll be there for you all the time, through all obstacles I'll hold you up when you fall, I'll be your listener and lend you a helping hand whenever you need someone. I'll always be there for you.
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叶子
叶子 是不会飞翔的翅膀
孤单 是一个人的狂欢
狂欢 是一群人的孤单
爱情 原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃饭 旅行 (到处)走走停停
也一个人看书 写信 自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你
我版本的叶子
孤单 我只能把心事往自己心里推
你的肩膀是我不敢依靠的地方
我怕你嫌我烦 怕被你骂
我想学者长大不想烦你
只能把枕头当作是我的依靠
一个安静没星星的夜晚
寂寞 已代替了所有的快乐
我忘了几时开始
我再也不让你知道我的不开心
只会在你面前装着若无其事
这样你也永远不会知道我的痛
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The Ultawomen
Yea, not ultra it's ulta
Well, I guess it has been a trend for biggy sunglasses nowadays. Same through Vincci and they're having 20% off on accesories, even cheaper than buying in pasar malam and those fake gucci, prada and LV at petaling street, must as well.
Feel like punching me on the face?
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Free photoshoot from Nivea
Free photoshoot take only la
Why people keep saying we look like twins? no no ....
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