Good Times Fly by Much Faster Than You Think ....
When I'm young I don't remember time passing by me that fast? Or it's due to technology that our earth is turning faster than usual? Impossible, the scientist must be smart enough to know if such things happened. Probably it's the sun, erm causing the planets to .. I'm just crapping nonsense. I recall I have a lot of time to study for UPSR, when they're counting down this stupid date on the blackboard everyday. Uh, Yuk Chai's style. KiaSu-ism that we must win the other school over there.
So .. I always wanted to be 21, thinking I'm legal enough to do things. Now, no I do not want to be, because being 21 means you're old enough to judge what are you doing and much more responsibilities will come in hand. Also career, another thing which is a big headache for me now. Please, PTPTN don't come chase me to pay back now, yes 25k .. 10years, uh wait .. the contract never says if I die, am I supposed to pay the government back?
Bush court, I miss the green grass .. green trees, where I cannot find here, no wonder breathing there was much easier than here .. inhaling tons of carbon dioxide from cars and humans fart
Do I look as if I'm in London or something? Empty streets without cars, goodness I can't even find a spot like that to take photo here, other than the back lane of Jalan ChowKit which is featured in Lau Shi JIa Lau Da that people can kick durians there.
Soft grass that I can practically fall asleep. If that were to be here, I think I might end up sleeping on a dog poo or pee.
I should stop complaining about my home country. Other than, oil price raise, crimes level increase to the maximum, everything getting more expensive, politician using dirty methods to fight against each other, irresponsible drivers, people who bang you and give u a stare instead of sorry .. too much. I'm complaining again bahhh ....
See .. realise a difference there at the last photo?
No?
Of course you won't be able to see, but you'll be able to feel .... that there's this happiness within me, the way I smile, the way that I'm out of worries ....
Good time passes by too fast. I miss them alot.
Somehow, it doesn't really matter where you are, but as long as you're with your love one, it's the company that you enjoy more than the place itself. Don't you think so?
Ok great, he always put friends 1st, if a friend would to do something same with me, the friend will definitely get the credit, because I'm more of "you should do this" so it doesn't really come by in mind that I've did something, you know, whatever.
Girls like to hear appreciative words, why tell me why? Sleep early and go to work tomorrow with me being half sick.
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One Thing I Can't Stand The Most ...
People who always strive for attention from others ... Seriously you don't need self-pity ... Don't need to tell others about this and that just to get others to care for you ...
Really
Please ...
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Keeping on the track ....
When you say you understand a person very well, but actually you don't really do .... Sometimes it's really hard to search for the inner being or probably say to catch what's the person thinking.
I would say no one really understand me well enough, other than God of course,
you don't really know me that well enough, neither you do know what I want in life ....
Sometimes it's just pretty useless saying things and giving promises only by using mouth, probably it's me that my personality tends to doubt a lot and having all the insecurities due to unpleasant experiences. Don't know why but I just prefer to see something solid or physically being done rather than only from words.
I'm growing to be a more materialistic person? Or when people grow old they tend to be like that? Don't get me wrong I'm not talking about money. More of wanting fruits from the tree that I've planted.
U understand what I'm saying? I bet you don't .. that's why I said no one knows me well.
Things over there is better of course, when you enjoy life you tend to forget what's back then anymore and have less worries, but I'm stuck here for sure, so when I face difficult times, I look in the mirror and say do not give up. Bian Tai part of me. Good motivation though, work some times.
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Securing a place in top company
Seriously, it's so hard to secure a job in a good company, MNC namely the Multinational Company when you know that working inside there is worth more than anything, even worth more than the stupid Degree cert you have which only represents a piece of paper with NOTHING. Yes you read me with NOTHING, no work experience or whatever. But if you got to work in a MNC up to 2years you're a valuable asset in the market, every company will say yes to you and your demand for salary will shoot up high.
You'll have to go through this test and that test and numerous screening interview.
So yea, I've finished the personality test way long time ago when I apply for SK2 position. Monday was my screening test for the P&G business challenge. I can tell you that the paper itself is much more difficult than what I have done in degree??? Testing IQs, Maths and English. Expecting us to only spend 1 min on each questions. I tell you, I hantam half of the paper, quarter is based on my marketing knowledge and the test I found the answer closest ... something like I found 17% so 15 is the nearest so I pick that one.
I was prepared to be kick out of this immediately since I did not think that I could pass the test at all and when they announce that my session out of 30over people, only 8 made through. I stood right behind and my primary school friend pass the test, he's being called out, one by one ... until the 6th I heard "Xze Zang", I stood there for a moment wondering is there something wrong with my ear? But none walk out ... and I was sooooo surprise that I actually got through.
You know what I said "Go Yuk Chai people, we produce bunch of smarties which is in renown Uni in the world, some became famous working in big companies and some is on TV" ... HAHA sucks to be you Puay Chai =P Sorry I'm just being lame to insult some ... who don't even know how to speak chinese people ... (I've got a feeling that they're gonna bash me up this weekend) I'm just kidding, don't take it so serious.
Anyway, I'm not saying I'm really that smart ... maybe I'm haha ... but nothing is possible without God's help. I REALLY did not think I can make it, other than God who would make all my tembak end up to be right answer?
Do you think that's it ...? NO ... I had to do another round of supplemental data sheets and went through another round of interview today. The easiest interview I've went through is Public Bank, so easy until ... I've quit the job, forget about that one. Only when the interview is hard and you get it, you know you're worth something.
In the end if I'm able to make it, it's worth everything ... the challenge is worth itself when you get to experience what's going on in the big company everyday, I bet no one knows what's going around behind there when you're eating Pringles, using SK2, washing your hair with Pantene and so on.
The challenge is a 4day3nights shorter version of Apprentice, whereby case study will be given and various other challenges, including eating with high level managers, factory visiting ... Erm, if I get in, can you please don't take my handphone away from me?
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相爱很难，各自有各自的期望怎么样？
美好的回忆是永远都那么的短暂，一旦错过就不可能再回头。短暂的来却让人念念不忘，永远都成为回忆的一部份。回忆只能在脑海里写下一片蒙蒙的画面，闭上眼睛就好像回到当时的情景，看着一片美丽的蓝天，听着轻轻的海浪声，呼吸着新鲜的空气，仿佛漂泊在半空中。美丽的回忆永远都会留在照片中，仿佛那一刻停留了下来，那一个美丽的笑容，那一天的晴天都被紧紧的抓住。
人一生只能活一次，有很多选择也只有一次，一生中只能爱一个人，一些事情也只有一次的机会。一旦错过就永远都不会回来。
也许相爱很难，各自有各自的期望怎么样？就像歌词写着，你有你的期望，而我有我的梦想，只有不爱不难。如果我们各走各的路，真的可以那么轻易就放下吗？忘记所有一切，就当没认识过。七年的每一天在脑海的每一个角落，真的就可以忘掉吗？当前的那一天，我就不会后悔我今天狠狠做的这个决定？
明知到不该爱，我就要爱，我就是一个那么倔强的人，就算到后来我要受一万次的伤心也改变不了我的决定。为了跟你在一起，看人脸色做人或让别人用那种眼光看我，我忍，我不言一句。我也是人，很想喊“累”。背后的毒舌毒语或人家从来都没把我这没地位的人放进眼里我都把这口气吞了。 累啊
等待也是一件累人的事，等了一年有要再等多无数的几多年呢？我有还有多少的几年可以再等呢？我真的觉得等待很累，不断的努力等待这一年过去，我办到了，可是却还要在等一直的等下去。就好像写着一篇永远都无法完成的故事，几时才会是美好结局灰姑娘和王子的Happily Ever After 呢？故事越来越厚，我也觉得这包袱越来越重。
故事会有快乐的完结篇吗？你觉得呢？
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Happy yet sad
The hardest part in a relationship is that ...
You know that you love this person very much and he's the one you would want to spend with for a lifetime BUT ...
Knowing that both of you can't be together ... and must be parted by distance, not knowing how long will that be, probably a few years not seeing each other at all
I can only say that I'm really very tired with long distance relationship but it sure did build me up this one year plus, learning how to trust one another because living in two different places means that you do not know what's the other doing at all. I would say that this one year had taught me much, from growing up learning how to handle things by myself to appreciating one another more when we realise that how good it's to have the love one beside. If it's not due to this experience I guess until today I will still dwell upon the relationship of tying my boyfriend up, not learning how to give each other space and respect. And the outcome is we both are really feeling much happier being with each other compare to those time.
In order to make a relationship work, someone must be there willing to take a step back, not always pondering who's right and who's wrong ... If one word sorry can give another comfort, why not say so? In the end if your other half feels happy and you'll eventually be too. Don't say you're doing this for him/her and he/she is not willing to accept the way you're, if you want to be together then just accept the positive and negative of each others. Never count too much when you're in a relationship, or else it'll be the same with doing accounting, writing every single thing down clearly to make sure that the account balance in the end of the day. Love can never be balance ...
I truly know that he's one that no one out there can replace, for what we've went through so far, things in the past whereby we can talk now and laugh our ass off... Things ranging from changing my whole friendster profile to a pig, drama scenes in the park, telling stories about how kena chut mai by heng dais, knocking head on sign board or some dark secrets ... those young days ... just to realise I'm getting older day by day ...
If you do realise ... when I speak, I tend to make some rubbish mistakes in my vocab, the one who can't stop laughing and irritating me, in the end making me real happy will only be him ...
Cooking was fun, seeing a man willing to cook and wash plates somehow gives me some assurance, please do not ask me why I do not have any reason for this one. I know that good moments are really short and they passes by me really fast ...
I'm really tired of parted by distant, I've waited ... and being ask to wait again and again ... how long will this be after all ... how much do we have in our life to be wasted upon waiting ... after reading the book "A Walk to Remember" somehow the story struck me ... (Btw good book, spiritual love story about how a boy came to know Christ through the love and faith of a girl)
Oh well, life's in a mess now, on the road that I do not know which path I should take next ... everywhere seems green and attractive to me ...
I know that it's really difficult to get a job in aussie unless you have some skills that they require, I've even thought of being a air stewardess so that we could see each other more often at least, knowing that after this july ... time will know when we can meet again in future
I only know that I do not feel like being apart anymore ... Happy and yet sad story of mine
Quotes
"I feel very happy every time I get to be with you, but on the other hand I feel sad as well knowing that we will be parted soon as the time goes by ..."
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In loving memory of Aunt Irene
I wanted to write this a while ago, just that I do not have the time to sit down and think with a clear mind ..
Having to lose someone, who has probably the best personality I've ever seen so far in my life
Having to lose someone, who always forgive
Having to lose someone, who's always kind and caring even until the last moment
She have shown everyone the faith she have in God, many are touched, people around were greatly encourage by the faith in her even how much pain and endurance she had went through ... and I am one of them, who has yet to learn so many qualities from her ...
Japan trip where she knows that I could not afford to pay for the ticket but I really wanting to go, without any condition, she just offered to pay for me the airfares. My grandmother insisted me to pay back and I did ... knowing that every family have their own financial burdens, I should not accept without considering. I fall sick during the 1st day of the trip itself, she talked to me over the phone and showing much concern.
The day when my dear flew off to Perth, leaving me behind, she's one of the person who cared the most about me. Never doubt every week in church, she would ask me how am I doing, instead of me asking. Once I did not show up due to event job, I was surprise to receive a call asking about how am I doing and why I did not turn up on that Sunday. I was very sick on that day, having a cold and fever, I sort of said I'm sick during the call ... until today I still remember the voice telling me to take care.
Somewhere last year, in the hospital, where she was pushed back from the tube insertion ... where I remembered she was shivering in cold and tearing, I will never forget the moment that I touched her head and wiping of tears on her face. I guess that was the longest conversation I had with her so far, purely talking about the boy at Perth.
Previously when my dear was busy and had to drive relatives around, she came by and told me that she had to take her son away from me for sometime to drive the relatives around. In my heart, I wanted to say that ... "Please don't ever say sorry to me, you have every right to take him away from me, I'm just nothing more than a girlfriend".
My baptism day, she told me sorry that she could not come as she was not feeling well, and welcome me to the Christ's family. During Christmas itself, she said she has nothing to give me but instead gave me some money.
Recently, I smsed her asking about her condition and saying that I did not have time to visit due to work, she told me that she's still holding there and ... she said sorry to me that she had not asked about me as well. She's forever that kind and caring ... I can never be that perfect.
The last msg I ever received was ... telling me to have a good holiday. Why ... even in the condition when she's not well, she still took up the phone and send me a sms. She's always that good to everyone. I will keep that msg forever.
I know if I were to continue writing, this post will never reach the end ...
Lastly, I just want to say that I'm truly sorry that we've not made it back in time. I know that you're in good hands now, living without pain and singing in the midst of heaven. I will try my best to take care of Caine, make sure that he'll throw that bad temper away slowly day by day, if one day in future he's the one for me, I will not forget about you on that very important day and call you my mom as well.
She has set a great example of both a wife and mother that I would want to be in near future.
To my beloved dear, I will always be there for you, I know I've mentioned this numerous time ... but I will still continue even u got fed up of listening. I really want to be with you, to provide you the love and care that you've ever needed. I don't know what's gonna happen in near future, but I only know that for now you're still the one I love and the one that I do not want to give up. Like how they said, through the first sight I just know that you're the one without doubt. I will not only share your joy but walk with you throughout the hard times to share every single burden you have in life. This is a very difficult period for you, but so far you've done very well and I'm proud of you. You were not that little boy I knew 7years ago anymore, now I felt much secure, having you here. Thank you for loving me all these while, you're good ...
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I don't want to leave ....
Really .... I want to stay here ....
T.T
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Enjoying life ....
Coming here makes me want to stay here for long ....
Lifestyle and whatever that counts here, I definitely will choose this over my home country ....
Finally I can say this is where I've graduated from ....
I am loving Perth =P
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I'm off for 2 weeks
I will be away for 2 weeks .. getting a real long break in my life? After the frustrating job that I've withstand for more than 1 and half months.
So say whatever you wanna say ..
I will be on the plane ..
Here I come wombat, to see the real one rather than the cute one sitting on my table ..
Winter, the season where I dress like how I've seen in magazines ..
Till then .. I will enjoy life while I can, right?
Suzanne is flying alone ..
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