Interview one after another but ...
Yes so far I think I've had 3 interviews? Mostly all MNC (Multi National Company) means they have expand their business elsewhere other than in Malaysia. I would say if you have interview with all this MNC they have set a range of standard questions to ask you, and they'll make you to sit for some sort of exam on papers. None of this was easy and if you really did not prepare yourself at all prepare to get rejected.
Today so far was the toughest one I've ever went through, there was a MCQ based and written exam regarding matters on how to solve issues related with customers. Questions such as what's protocol, FTP and even drawing a diagram on how to connect PC to cable is required. I was sweating viewing at the question. I'm pretty lucky to have some minor knowledge on IT during my foundation years and at times I like to repair stuffs and I set up my home broadband by myself without any streamyx agent help ok? So I still manage to answer some questions. Just in case you wanna know why I have to sit this kind of exam because I was interview for the position of customer service for a broadband company in singapore.
Worse case scenario ever man today, they had a role play with me regarding an angry customer and although at times I still know how to bull shit regarding those interview Qs like how you relate your job to the position, but this one ... not prepared and I was like tergagap ... well they told me this is what you're gonna face with singaporeans, they scream at you or scold with with vulgar and they demand such small matters from you. Shit, I scared liao feel like this job not too suitable for me.
Next up, TrueFitness called me up for interview, without me applying. All this job super far from my house. I want a car please?
I miss my dear dear aka driver haha, coincidence that he wore the same colour with me that day, T.T our new CNY shirt from padini
Speaking about having someone fetching you, today I stood/sat at the putra bus station for an freaking hour and none of the bus that's heading back to KJ came. All was going to federal highway and subang, in the end someone had to come fetch me with the help of someone else because the place wasn't easy to find. At that moment I really missed my dear so much, those times when he was around and everything, plus having the KJ stadium located near there which brings back so much memories we had during school days.
Still remember that time we weren' t together, he was running for my house, I mean we were in the same green rumah during secondary days. Me being a PBSM I had to stand beside the track to 'save' anyone who pengsan or whatever ... I think he did not won that time right? haha. (Maybe too attracted to me so ran slow). After that during form5 years, we were enemy in the sense of PBSM n St.John. We went A&W to eat after that right? Still remember getting mad at him because he made me waited at the stadium door for sooooo long because he was flirting with some other girls. Old stories really ... we grew up that fast ...
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I was watching this singapore series, about marriage and stuffs like there's no guys that wouldn't fall into the temptation of a women. How true? Seriously if a girl use sex to attract a guy, I would say 99% of them would fall into that right. Also, a guy would feel damn proud when they know that girls are interested in them and eventually they'll fall to them. Even those with wife. Because they felt that oh they still have such charm on them. After a while, they will start to regret and realise who are those that are really true to them. But too late ...
Well, simple like how men do not understand why women likes to shop the whole day and not get tired and women do not understand why men get so fascinated when they see pretty girls. But this does not give rights to men to be disloyal. When one does not want to promise you anything, that means he/she do not want to be responsible on what they've said before.
The same applies to girls, maybe slight flirting is fine but I strongly disagree that you should be disloyal to the boyfriend and having another affair with some other guy. Two timing is real bad, wait until such things happen on you, you'll know how does it feels to get cheated. I can't do such things like telling my bf how much I do love him, while on the other hand I go out with another guy doing the same thing.
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Waiting everyday
Waiting, yet you do not know how long this waiting process will take, how many weeks or months, when you look ahead the future seems to be very far the time seems to be slow.
Every day of waiting, I fold one star until the day you return. There's 8stars in the bottle today, in months time this wine bottle will be filled up. Waiting needs great patience, commitment, trust and faithfulness. If you believe what you're waiting for is worth, then one day the person will return to you once again.
Well day after day when I see this bottle filled up with stars, I know the day when you're coming back will be soon. The day where I long awaited will be getting closer to me.
Star, a meaningful promise made between you and me ..
"whenever there are stars up in the sky, look at one of them, I will be the one looking at the same star as you and thinking of you every night and day."
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What makes a day complete ....
This song by Avril Lavigne- When You're Gone, twice it came by when I'm halfway typing a sms missing someone I love dearly.
I always needed time on my ownI never thought I'd need you there when I cryAnd the days felt like years when I'm aloneAnd the bed where you lieIs made up on your sideWhen you walk awayI count the steps that you takeDid you see how much I need you right now?When you're goneThe pieces of my heart are missing youWhen you're goneThe face I came to know is missing tooWhen you're goneThe words I need to hear to always get me through the dayAnd make it OKI miss youI've never felt this way beforeEverything that I doReminds me of youAnd the clothes you leftthey lie on my floorAnd they smell just like youI love the things that you doWe were made for each otherOut here foreverI know we wereYeah YeahAll I ever wanted it was for you to knowEverything I do I give my heart and soulI can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with meYeah
What completes a day, is where someone you love coming to you saying how much he misses you. Telling you how jealous he was looking at other couples that he felt that your presence was very important to him. Oh, finally after all these years I've see some appreciation, what a great improvement =P Kidding. Well, you yourself know that you're a super forgetful men that you can even forget things that happened last week? 1st time listening you mentioned about those good times we've spent, seriously happy when you told me it doesn't matter long or short the time we've spend together, but the moments and memories we had together these 3months that's what matter the most.
Hm, I wonder how long I've never hear such thing from you? Well, sometimes separation does brings good. I mean of course I do not wish to separate for so long. 1 Year ??!! Goodness even counting the days also killing.
Many said talking about marriage at such young age is .... ? Nonsense? Especially to the adults haha, only not nonsense to them if they wish to have grandchild soon. 22 already actually legal and not counted that young afterall. I mean to me, well it's kinda early to talk about all this at the moment, what I felt now, is just to earn money 1st and secure my career and talk about those later. However, in the case whereby when you hear someone says, in 3years plus time, I'm planning to get married with you is kinda touching and minimise the insecurities we had at this distance. You weren't kidding that time right?
I know, you're hoping that I would be able to find time to fly over to Perth. I'm trying my best to find a job to earn money and then find some time to go there as well. Listening how excited you were, telling me where and where you'll bring me and introducing me to all your friends there. Then buying groceries and cooking together. This sounds extremely tempting, I so wanna be there.
These are the things that completes my day, when I felt extremely tired on those interview ..
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Changes ...
There are many phase of changes in life, moving from one to another wasn't easy, especially the biggest leap I'm taking now into the working world. Not that the market do not have any job offerings, there are tons for business student which is the highest demand now, however to find one that's paying reasonable, or finding one that has proper working hours and tolerable distance from my area wasn't easy at all. All of them were either too far that I have to switch transport by 6am in the morning, or work from 10am-10.45pm minus public holidays, weekends and all. I need a life too you know, why companies make fresh graduate suffer? I don't wanna die soon when I just started working.
The one I went today, they really like me for my experience, ability in speaking and reading chinese as well (I told you, if u forgot your chinese, you should regret for life). But the hours are based on shopping retailing hours. Noting that I'm a girl, returning home at 11pm at night in this country, I would really get myself into big trouble long-term.
Interview after one another, but yet to find one that's like I won't end up in the hospital for over stressed. This is life? Face it right ... Some times just wish to continue sleeping and dreaming to run away from the reality world.
My convocation date was confirmed on 29 of October which is a weekday which made me kinda mad. How do they expect people to take leave or parents just to go down to Singapore smack between the weekdays? At least Friday night is not that bad. Another hope ruin. Of course I do wish my family and love ones will be there to celebrate this joyous occasion with me, hoping that someone would bring a bouquet of flowers with a graduation teddy as promised. Somehow reality is abit too far from what I hope all the time.
Changes also applies to humans. I find many people change easily, change their mind at a split second, change the way they used to treat others, or even change their personality at one go. Scary. Different faces infront of different people.
Sometimes, I'm just tired up to the point that I really need someone to talk to. At times like this I couldn't afford to call him at all since the calls will cost rm1 per minute. Most of the time I'll keep things within myself until at night, when we finally can web cam and maybe things like this can make me happier. But when things change at times, I'll just keep quiet and obey because I know if I don't the consequences is that I'm looking for a argument. Patience.
I kept it within myself and have a good cry and hoping to forget when I'm awake. Do u know at times when I'm really sad and tired?
Tonight, I decided to share it with my dear blog, the only place that I could pour out ...
"Everday I wake up I told myself not to give up in anything I do, I told myself that nothing is impossible, I told myself to stand strong in order to go through all this obstacles. Even he's not beside me now, I have to learn how to adapt things, to be strong and independent. Some times, even I do miss you so much that I sat down crying, I told myself this would only be a while, don't cry you have to be strong.
During times when I get rejected, I would say to myself, take a good look at the mirror, why would you give up yourself over such things? Listening to songs that contain lyrics expressing my feelings, as if there's someone else who understand the situation I'm ...
I wanted to tell you, how those people make me feel so dejected all the time. Every words they said can be so discouraging at times. I wanted to tell you why I was feeling down today.
I wanted to tell you about so many things carried heavily over my mind...
I wanted to tell you about how I feel ... if only I have the chance ..."
I felt that things change so easily, sometimes you really do wish things were once as good as last time, but at times you can only keep it to yourself before you face the consequences.
我只想你像以前一样那么的关心我
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When I have nothing to do ....
Since that he's far apart from me and I was really responding blindly to stuffs today, first is super lack of sleep for few nights, then the not so use to without him life which left my life to emptiness at this point. Time, I'll need time to get use to everything again before things are back on track. Slept numerous times today on my bed, but I just can't seemed to fall asleep. Sleep wake up then disturbed my mental playing scenes in my mind forbidding me to sleep well, I wake up every 5-10minutes. Plus the sudden pain I had in the afternoon, just lie on the bed for an hour because it was too painful for me to walk. Feeling grumpy.
Next up what am I gonna write? Blogging twice a day? I must be out of my mind. Nothing better to do.
Memories .. Caution super long story, you will get bored
After the 4months of long waiting, struggling hard to pass all my subjects, then finally the day I waited with extreme happiness finally came. I remembered standing at the arrival hall, I was feeling so cold waited around 20minutes and finally I hug the one I missed for so long. Virtual hug can never be compared to this hug. First I got this odd feeling, having to hold someone's hand again, find weird to have a bf back again. Well probably due to the long waited time then slowly the feeling is like falling in love all over again. Went mamak at 1am then unpack things until 2am+ and that's where he surprise me with wombie, that I actually forgot all about that. That time is over joy until cannot sleep.
Teddy n wombie, plus my text book was having final exam that time
Fast forward to my 21st birthday. This was pretty blurly to me because I was half sick that time. As usual had our favorite BBQ plaza but I was too sick to eat and then proceed to pool and we catch a movie after that. I spent my 21st birthday having exam. Then the party I had at my parent's house, I really regretted that I did not try many of the food, why must I be sick that time, eish. There's where I got my 2nd swatch, I love both of them very much, I always keep them in the box every time after I wear, can't even bare to have a scratch.
After that total freedom when my finals ended at 28th of november, finally can start going out late night =P Actually I even went for movie and shopping during my finals, my concept is play hard then after that you regret you'll study hard. Spend days watching movie, sing k, shopping, watching dvds and going pasar malam.
During december, we spent most of the time practicing sketch. Starting to miss those days when we had ice cream on earth quake day and he bringing me to have my favourite fondue when he doesn't enjoy chocolates, but he'll still go for my sake. So overall he's not that bad also right? Just that he can't stop complaining and grumbling when you go shopping, just like a fly until I cannot tahan.
Don't know why having him beside me through life seemed to brought me more laughter, sometimes it's pretty irritating that he irritates me up to my nerves, but sometimes all this just brought me numerous joys. I used to reject stuffs like hugging n kisses in public, but somehow after he came back this time, I felt that appreciating things and time you have and do whatever you're happy with as long as it's not too extreme is fine with me. Like now I can't even do this anymore, so .. when we have the chance why not?
This year's new year eve we had steamboat at my parent's place, then we proceeded to 1utama to see fireworks surprisingly it was not really that over pack at all. Finally, this sentence "Qian ni de shou qu gan jue yan huo zhui mi ren de ji jie" came true after so many years, watching the beautiful firework for 10minutes. After that rain pouring heavily and we were eating lok-lok underneath the tiny little roof of the van. Romantic ah? Funny my shirt half wet ok.
There's one night that I'll never forget, the night where I was so worried and only after I saw him that his condition is fine, at that moment it was such a big relief. My weakest point is to let a guy cry infront of me and every nerves of mine will fail. Gazing at the one I love who used to laugh and talk alot to someone who sat there blindly lost, such heartache. I could only do my best to take good care of him. Also glad that I was there for him. Afterall, the nights where we sat together playing game n watching a football match, those good memories.
Next memories is the genting trip, riding all the rides they had in the theme park and taking funny photos in ripley believe it or not. Also the haunted house where my this dear is even more scared than me hahaha .. Did you shouted louder than me? Dinner at ciserello was great, paid only 20+ for a full course meal. Went into to casino for fun and surprisingly not getting stop at all, went in to see how people throw their money into the sea, watch espn and grab free drinks.
Seeing him get jealous over me while guy approach was fun =P He reluctantly pull me over and hold me trying to tell those guys I'm not available, ahaha love the way he did. Also love the way he hugged me that day during the go kart and said, if you were the one I would just jump out and do anything just to make sure you are fine. 1st time I've ever heard such caring words from him.
Recent valentine's day 1st time having such expensive dinner, thanks to shogun not placing notice over the revise price. Sake was extremly strong, but still got to eat many many nice food. He did not tell me that he booked a twin seat =P and the movie was interesting too, jumper. So this is probably the last movie I watch with him for the whole year to come an end? I miss your arms keeping me warm T.T Anyhow I'll only be available to watch movie only during weekends or night time, since working life will come soon.
There are so much memories .... but why the time passed by so fast? I wish I could stop the time and let those good moments be there forever. I miss you my dear. I love you so much. Everytime when you're apart from me, I felt that pieces of my heart n soul followed you along. When you're apart is where we learn to appreciate the person the most. 1Year .. what am I gonna do?
Something wrong with blogger, after the 1st photo I failed to upload.
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I'm missing him crazily .. Over reacted?
Yes la if you know me well enough, mostly know that I'm one who will fail to control my emotional state at all time. Somehow I never cry at the airport today, not like the 1st time. Maybe last night cried enough no more tears to shed. We didn't have those really heart2heart talk as what we planned but at least still spent 15mins lying in his arms talking over things. Even though the time was short but to me, that 15mins was pretty enough.
Somehow I know after I reach home I'll definitely be in tears because these are the times when I feel so lonely and needing to adapt to the environment of not having him beside me all over again after spending the last 3months together for so long. Getting use to the feeling of not getting to hold hand, no one's arms to lean on during movie, no one fetching me, no more him kacau me (poking, tickling, singing song, imitating me), no more the laughter that I use to hear, I just really can't get use to many many of these at this second.
Many many things had happened within this 3months, I can said that the time is really passing by too fast because the last time is when I see him back but now suddenly 3months just vanish like that. Although time passed by fast but we really did went through many good times and bad times. At least I never failed to provide him a shelter when he needed one. Well, sometimes maybe it doesn't matter how much you've done for one another as long as the person learns to appreciate.
1year .. I have to be patience for another 1year. The previous 4months was fast, how about this time? I'm missing you so much even though I've just seen you this morning. How I wish you could come back, how I wish that I could go there. I'm missing you so much .. time now you can go by faster I don't mind.
Taken on 18th November 2007, 2:15am .. and now you're back there again T.T
Emo.. period
Feeling depress at times, don't understand I could just sit down there, halfway sleeping, bathing, watching tv, eating .. then suddenly just thought of you and started tearing ? Being too emo now
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Interview was never meant to be easy
Scary, this can be said the 1st interview for me, as in a serious job. I did prepare by going through the company profile, but forgot about the part whereby they asked me whether I have any question regarding the company, shit sure fail. Fail mah fail, since the company is kinda too far for me and after looking at their working condition I felt a bit beh song working in those environment, NO guys, yes 70%-80% of the company is dominated by girls only accept that some top management are men. Plus their working cubicle is small like my primary desk. Also those jobs are not related to my studies at all.
Nvrm, second chance at DeGem, owner of DeGem and diamond&platinum, I guess at least working there will be related to my work field, marketing at least? Time to start motivating myself into the working world accepting the fact that no play play anymore, time to learn how to let go of things sometimes, time to grow up. Like what they said, why you worry so much when there's much more opportunities with a wide opened green forest in the working world. Not like less one guy can die right?
Wait ... I haven't finish, I'm being offered a secretarial position, HR thinks that I have the qualities to assist the director (Normally secretary dig the director hahaha). Insult or compliment now? I wanna work for fashion, beauty line ... come on please let me do what I'm passionate about for once?
I'm all prepared to work, I bought bag n formal shirt for work, about shoes don't care la I've got more than 20s of them sitting in the cupboard. Yes I'm a shoe freak.
ONE factor I found about jobs today, you need to know CHINESE, which is definitely a PLUS to everything. No kidding, If you've forgotten how to speak fluent chinese, read or write them I'm really sorry for you haha.
Another one, PLease do not use Nationwide courier if you do wish to post anything, it's the worse service I've ever encounter, use Pos Malaysia, they're doing a very good job in everything. I've always used it and delivery never fails. Let me tell you the story, my package was supposed to arrive like two days ago, they promise me to send by 3pm today and I still fail to get it, reason? Motorbike spoil cannot work and courier even had to walk to send parcels. Wah, you think I believe ah? I must be retard man.
就让我FAT LOU SOU 一下，最近自从某某人的出现好像有让我回到从前，这几个月对我的好，好像又突然间变了另一个人，开始对我感到厌倦。天啊，原来这句话讲的一点也没错，要改变一个人真的比登天还要难。我已学了忍耐功夫，我一句都没回话，就算被嫌或被人骂我都沉默。有时还被当工人使唤，我也无所谓。 可是，你觉得我会那么天真吗？海很大里面有好多
多谢她的出现让原本的彩虹变了天灰
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Searching for jobs
CNY will be coming to an end soon, which means I really need to find a job or I'll be eating grass. I've sent in many applications and waiting for companies to call me up for interview. Pheww, this means the end of holiday and the beginning of new life.
I really find those who can't wait to start work and not even enjoying bits of their holidays so weird, in simple terms this is call "kiasu-ism". Guess what, I've only done my CV like one month ago and still happily enjoying my holidays =P If I have the money I would head for backpacking and traveling to places 1st before I start work. Now I understand why marketing people dislike ---------- ppl so much. The way we work is just totally the opposite, one towards the creative side and one is just dead following rules all the time. Yaa, just go ahead and watch "Just follow law", and see what happened in the end.
Chinese New Year is pretty fruitful with the amount of money I earned from collecting ang paus for just sitting at home. Eating was great, when I was in parent's house my mouth never stop eating every hour with the cans of drinks and food placed on the tables.
Today, the day celebrated by many in the world, namely Valentine's day is the day where restaurant, flowers and gift prices being hacked up to the maximum. Sorry I do not like flowers so guys who like me pretty luck =P If you buy one ok, buy one bouquet instead of appreciating I will start scolding you because the flowers are gonna die soon and what do I do with it after 3days? Cis spend that 100bucks must as well buy me something valuable. UNLESS, the flower is meant for proposal.
I already got my Vday gift, which is a Manchester AIG shirt. I had to grab the man's one because partly there's no girls jersey selling here, then I prefer guys' one as the girl's one looked abit short and out of shape. The shirt look big on me but I think it's pretty cool like wearing lou gong's oversize shirt hahahaha. Nvrm, dear has one too, this is our Qi Lu Zhuang, yes ours because we were Manchester fans since years ago. Jersey brings the meaning of supporting the team, not wearing for fun. Please la win the match this saturday. I only know a girl who love to watch football, which is May. Envy that brazil shirt she has that costed around 300.
Start work .......................................... soon and he's gonna leave me alone here again. DO you know how lonely I'm? Just kidding =P But times without him seemed to be much quiet, lesser laughter, no one irritating me ... Loenly I'm so lonely, I'm no body (singing ...)
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Susubear
Susubear
Where did this name came from? Somewhere 4years plus ago when I was once still in FSB304 foundation studies, my good mate Joey and I that spend numerous days of lunch at McD thanks to Joshua, anyway I wonder where's him now. I really miss those foundation days where we find the most ridiculous excuses just to escape from accounting class (sucks big time, all of us marketing student hate accounting like shit, obviously because it's boring ?!!). Excuses given like class too hot aircond spoil, no mood to do work, ponteng class initiated by our president of Singapore to play dota(Class jokes only our kakis will faham). Still remember once I finish my accounts people around will go grab my work to copy so that we can all go home. Until they got caught hahaha ... foundation mah what you think?
Spend all our english classes having fun, chatting and joking around. Laughing over thinking skills lecturer where we can't even hear a word he spoke. Buying cake celebrating everyone's birthday as an excuse to miss half an hour of class. Those are the days where I miss the most, throwing slippers all around, playing chase chase in room 405 and 406. Making fun of ghost stories until no one dares to go turn on the light. Going yam cha with Christine, Tee Coln, Joey ... I miss them truly. Degrees days were much tougher with datelines and exams.
Cut short so Terrence gave us the name, Joey as JoJo bear and Suzanne as the SuSu bear.
I'm finally saying goodbye to university, goodbye to all those times going sing k, makan and shopping with the girls. Sitting at the cafeteria bumming and gossiping and staring at leng chais leng luis. Getting half drunk at Safari and laughing over the girl who took of her shoes =P My record is 4 Heineken without puking, who care when someone is paying our bills right? Ahaha, this is having the benefit being friends with leng luis, you get guys to pay of your bills. Still regret over not asking the guy to buy me a Chivas that night at Zouk.
Sometimes being over faithful will results in decrease of appreciates you receive.
You see I was never wrong right, the things I worried the most, I fear the most in the end happened also ... Yup everything I said will be forever wrong, every intention I have will lead to the same outcome, those things other said will always be right. Good thing that I'm still alive although I've scare most of my neighbors off, lost my voice temporary, if I couldn't have back my voice to sing I'm gonna kill you all. The reason of such big arguments, will forever be the same reason over and over again. Times were so much more better before this few days. Not just being over sensitive but something call enough. Face the truth I will, yes you're part of the clique and I'm always the evil one. I'll always remember today, for I've only said one sentence because of you that I got all the scoldings, blaming over and over again. You always get protected while me is a rubbish in the junk yard.
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Insecurities ....
Sometimes I just feel this way, ever since things happened.
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2 very different feelings
10 days before you came back, I was so excited and counting down every day from 10 .... to 1 until the day I waited for months until I can see you again. I still remember that Saturday which is the day that I've been that happy before in my life, I can't express the feelings yet I just can't stop talking because I was too over excited.
However, I felt kinda weird after seeing him for real (normally it is virtually) for months, even holding hands feel odd for me, can you imagine? I was at the state whereby I'm so used to being single, like for not watching movies for months, not digging out any dresses to wear from my cupboard to go for dating .... and so on. Then the sudden feeling of having someone beside you, holding u once again in the arms side by side and hands that were once familiar. Just unexplainable, feels like over joy by something that you waited for ages.
Then now which is a very different feeling .. knowing that again the days will come by again but the heart just have this uneasiness that's so not willing to let go once again. Having known that how difficult such separation moments feel, this even felt heavier when you do not know when you'll get to meet each other once again. Months? Year? Feeling of waiting feels so bad when you do not know how long this will take, seems to be longer when you do not know the time.
Well the only thing I can do now is kept the best memories we've spent together all these years. They say when you wait for something, things may seemed more precious and eventually learn to appreciate the person more. Well I have to agree to this maybe in short period of months this really brought many benefits to the relationship including learning how to let go of things and giving each other some space.
I've experience this myself, if you were to spend every single day and night with that particular person, relationship will only go bad one day, because you end up have nothing to talk to with that person anymore and you'll find that person so irritating and get fed up with things. Spending too much time with each other will not make you appreciate the person more but instead making things go bad. Maybe for months of separation may bring such results but speaking about being separated for too long, I'm not sure myself whether I'll start to lose interest on that person. If this happens means the relationship not stable or you're just not meant to be? Normally things only happens when the 3rd party appears .... right?
Hmmm.... maybe some handsome hunk+good personality+kind+charming+ .... I may meet in my soon to come job may change my heart. HAHAHAHA ....
Wait .. I thought I was in a depress mood ? Having only few more days left plus minus those CNY days where everyone will be spending with family including myself. Feel like doing something crazy though .. feel like using super glue on my hand then our hand will be stick together hahahahaa.
I don't wanna live my life that lonely again, time don't pass so fast please? I'm gonna miss you, miss every single moment we've spent together these few months, things just seems to pass me by too fast until I don't have the time to record them down. This year we won't be spending our birthdays and anniversary together, at least there's still a Valentine's day left for you and me.
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There's alot of jobs for marketing and management students all around, but the problem is finding one that is suitable. I guess getting the job in firms that I like would be so tough, I wanna enter Loreal or ACP magazines but they have no job postings at all for now? Maybe I would just write in to give a try.
Mostly the jobs I've found are all in KL, Shah Alam .... blah blah. Feel like working for astro too but BUkit Jalil???? Means waking up at 5am everyday to change from lrt to star and take hours to reach. U lucky people I know your parents supply you with a car so stop making me jealous. Still I have to look for a job. Stupid IBM wanting fresh graduates with CGPA of 3.5upon4.0. How possible is that? Getting all HD in every subjects? Weii .. local U then possible la speaking of overseas one ??
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Another thing ....
I'm one who will work for things I want in life, I ain't eye-ing on anyone's money at all. I'm not those kind of girls who are desperate to marry a rich guy to pay off the rest of their life. No thank you those are dumbies, I won't want to sit at home and shop everyday. I rather be out there and work for what I want in life. I love a guy that's why I'm with him, simple & easy.
I might not be good enough compare to those rich girls out there with good family background but one things I'm sure I do not demand anything branded or expensive before, or neither I'm those who expect guys to pay for my meals and movies or I expect the guy to flash out the credit card to pay off all my bills when I shop. I use my own money when I want something.
Feeling fortunate having me as gf? muahahaha .... at least I don't burn your wallet a big hole. Lame.
Well, the thing I worry the most will come by soon .... I really hope history will not repeat itself because everything seems to be happy and fine this past 1year ever since .....
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