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Monday, February 18, 2008

I'm missing him crazily .. Over reacted?

Yes la if you know me well enough, mostly know that I'm one who will fail to control my emotional state at all time. Somehow I never cry at the airport today, not like the 1st time. Maybe last night cried enough no more tears to shed. We didn't have those really heart2heart talk as what we planned but at least still spent 15mins lying in his arms talking over things. Even though the time was short but to me, that 15mins was pretty enough.

Somehow I know after I reach home I'll definitely be in tears because these are the times when I feel so lonely and needing to adapt to the environment of not having him beside me all over again after spending the last 3months together for so long. Getting use to the feeling of not getting to hold hand, no one's arms to lean on during movie, no one fetching me, no more him kacau me (poking, tickling, singing song, imitating me), no more the laughter that I use to hear, I just really can't get use to many many of these at this second.

Many many things had happened within this 3months, I can said that the time is really passing by too fast because the last time is when I see him back but now suddenly 3months just vanish like that. Although time passed by fast but we really did went through many good times and bad times. At least I never failed to provide him a shelter when he needed one. Well, sometimes maybe it doesn't matter how much you've done for one another as long as the person learns to appreciate.

1year .. I have to be patience for another 1year. The previous 4months was fast, how about this time? I'm missing you so much even though I've just seen you this morning. How I wish you could come back, how I wish that I could go there. I'm missing you so much .. time now you can go by faster I don't mind.

Taken on 18th November 2007, 2:15am .. and now you're back there again T.T
Emo.. period

Feeling depress at times, don't understand I could just sit down there, halfway sleeping, bathing, watching tv, eating .. then suddenly just thought of you and started tearing ? Being too emo now

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