Susubear Little Inn: A failure of faithfulness

Seeking My True Self

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

A failure of faithfulness

Words of caring would be so much more better than brushing me off every time. Really make me wonder, there's no relationship that will last. People tend to get fed up easily and they change their mind everytime. I wish I can let go of things easily and walk out of the shadow of depression soon and live with a smile everyday.

I can't. I need support from people around me, I will fall in one night just because of some matters. I do not want to live in the past. I want to forget about every pain that I have went through.

Are you one of them who are helping me?

Do you know how does it feels to have like 30packets of medicine infront of me, because I've visited the doc more than 10times this year.

Also, every night there's tons of medicine I need to take before I sleep? Why me? Why I'm always the one falling sick. I am really tired.

These medicine will continue a year, if I do heal. Most important part still lies in my brain, medicine will only boost me up until a level and they need to be stop one day.

I'm looking forward to the day that I can stand still and tell others that I'm a normal human being. How is this possible when the closest person refuse to even lend a helping hand but only pushing me deeper everyday? I only wanted words of caring, am I asking too much?

How will you feel when you're down, yet people is using discouraging words on you. Pain, if that's from the person you love dearly.

I wish to sleep and not wake up from my dream. Only be awake when people learns to appreciate.

Human made mistakes but not too often, I have given many chances. When you regret one day, that will be the day when it's too late.

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