Day 1
This will only be open to read on the day when I no longer belong here. Why? Because people will only appreciate and learned to cherish when one is gone. When one is still here, they take you for granted of everything that you do for them. Every word you say, they'll take it as rubbish. Every word you write, they'll think that you're just plain irritating.As usual, he always tells me he have no mood to talk to me neither he do ever listen to me. As time goes by, I've slowly backed off and stopped telling him whatever I felt deep inside my heart. Is there any use? Since everything I said is always wrong and he will never have a heart to listen.
Took years to give me a card from years to years, there'll be not even a year or any special ocassion that it may ever come true. Don't think of giving me when I'm in my grave, I won't be able to read nor even touch. Everything till then will be useless and too late. And don't even bury me with those cards, because I no longer want them especially it's from you. Like what you've said, it's pointless and not meaningful anymore.
The moment I stepped into memory lanes looking at those beautiful cards with meaningful messages, I was imagining someone standing there picking one of those for me.
I've never asked for anything expensive before ever from you, if you do buy for me I would scold you and ask u to keep the money to buy a house in future instead. Neither I do like flowers, a bouque costing 100 over but dying in 2 days time. Compared to a card most expensive costing 10plus, he called me demanding, he said I'm asking too much in that way.
Others said I'm one that every guy wish to have, because I don't ask for much, neither I asked for branded items. Little things make me happy easily.
Yes, I've given out so much, sometimes I do feel tired and hope for some return as well. When you're scolding me, have you ever thought during those times when you're unwell, I will purposely take leave and buy you things to come and take care of you? If you do recall, there's not even once that I'm not there for you. But if you count in return, you're always not there for me. You'll ask me to go see a doctor by myself. Even my ass is in pain, you would rather leave me and ask me to drive there by myself. Not even a single concern that anything might happen or how it hurts to sit and drive like that .. or you'll just use the word that you said to me all the time "I don't know what to do with you" .. This is the same with asking me to go die. The other thing is that you'll find me so irritating and embarassing you just because I'm unwell. Not only that you don't help me, but you always just leave me there and said "can you stop it !". If you were in my shoes, being me everything is so hard, don't you think I don't wish to stop? DO you think I like to embarass myself? You're just purely selfish, you've never thought of how I feel.
I really don't have anymore, no ... totally 0 feelings, that kind of feelings with you anymore. I've put up some much with you that I'm feeling so tired being with you even another second.
Story of Day 1 : He argued with me over a card, he said I'm terrible, demanding and there's nothing that can make me happy.
My view point: It's just a card, is it worth so much of my tears? Btw, he don't even care if I'm crying neither am I dead. Like I said don't burn or ever place any card from Caine Chan ever, when I'm dead, I do not wish to receive any "unmeaningful" card from him. Just like what he said, "Now you make me don't even feel like buying since it's meaningless". I agree, don't. Really.
And you have a lot fo girls for you there on your the other fake facebook account, use them to have TFK as you wish. You're the most pervert guy I've ever met in my life. Even Jaslyn photo you would keep to use it when you're itching ... puke adv_username = "suzannetan"; adv_gid = "suzannetan_default"; adtype = "180x150";
Author **Suzanne** @ 4:15 PM
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