When I have nothing to do ....
Since that he's far apart from me and I was really responding blindly to stuffs today, first is super lack of sleep for few nights, then the not so use to without him life which left my life to emptiness at this point. Time, I'll need time to get use to everything again before things are back on track. Slept numerous times today on my bed, but I just can't seemed to fall asleep. Sleep wake up then disturbed my mental playing scenes in my mind forbidding me to sleep well, I wake up every 5-10minutes. Plus the sudden pain I had in the afternoon, just lie on the bed for an hour because it was too painful for me to walk. Feeling grumpy.Next up what am I gonna write? Blogging twice a day? I must be out of my mind. Nothing better to do.
Memories .. Caution super long story, you will get bored
After the 4months of long waiting, struggling hard to pass all my subjects, then finally the day I waited with extreme happiness finally came. I remembered standing at the arrival hall, I was feeling so cold waited around 20minutes and finally I hug the one I missed for so long. Virtual hug can never be compared to this hug. First I got this odd feeling, having to hold someone's hand again, find weird to have a bf back again. Well probably due to the long waited time then slowly the feeling is like falling in love all over again. Went mamak at 1am then unpack things until 2am+ and that's where he surprise me with wombie, that I actually forgot all about that. That time is over joy until cannot sleep.
Teddy n wombie, plus my text book was having final exam that time
Fast forward to my 21st birthday. This was pretty blurly to me because I was half sick that time. As usual had our favorite BBQ plaza but I was too sick to eat and then proceed to pool and we catch a movie after that. I spent my 21st birthday having exam. Then the party I had at my parent's house, I really regretted that I did not try many of the food, why must I be sick that time, eish. There's where I got my 2nd swatch, I love both of them very much, I always keep them in the box every time after I wear, can't even bare to have a scratch.
After that total freedom when my finals ended at 28th of november, finally can start going out late night =P Actually I even went for movie and shopping during my finals, my concept is play hard then after that you regret you'll study hard. Spend days watching movie, sing k, shopping, watching dvds and going pasar malam.
During december, we spent most of the time practicing sketch. Starting to miss those days when we had ice cream on earth quake day and he bringing me to have my favourite fondue when he doesn't enjoy chocolates, but he'll still go for my sake. So overall he's not that bad also right? Just that he can't stop complaining and grumbling when you go shopping, just like a fly until I cannot tahan.
Don't know why having him beside me through life seemed to brought me more laughter, sometimes it's pretty irritating that he irritates me up to my nerves, but sometimes all this just brought me numerous joys. I used to reject stuffs like hugging n kisses in public, but somehow after he came back this time, I felt that appreciating things and time you have and do whatever you're happy with as long as it's not too extreme is fine with me. Like now I can't even do this anymore, so .. when we have the chance why not?
This year's new year eve we had steamboat at my parent's place, then we proceeded to 1utama to see fireworks surprisingly it was not really that over pack at all. Finally, this sentence "Qian ni de shou qu gan jue yan huo zhui mi ren de ji jie" came true after so many years, watching the beautiful firework for 10minutes. After that rain pouring heavily and we were eating lok-lok underneath the tiny little roof of the van. Romantic ah? Funny my shirt half wet ok.
There's one night that I'll never forget, the night where I was so worried and only after I saw him that his condition is fine, at that moment it was such a big relief. My weakest point is to let a guy cry infront of me and every nerves of mine will fail. Gazing at the one I love who used to laugh and talk alot to someone who sat there blindly lost, such heartache. I could only do my best to take good care of him. Also glad that I was there for him. Afterall, the nights where we sat together playing game n watching a football match, those good memories.
Next memories is the genting trip, riding all the rides they had in the theme park and taking funny photos in ripley believe it or not. Also the haunted house where my this dear is even more scared than me hahaha .. Did you shouted louder than me? Dinner at ciserello was great, paid only 20+ for a full course meal. Went into to casino for fun and surprisingly not getting stop at all, went in to see how people throw their money into the sea, watch espn and grab free drinks.
Seeing him get jealous over me while guy approach was fun =P He reluctantly pull me over and hold me trying to tell those guys I'm not available, ahaha love the way he did. Also love the way he hugged me that day during the go kart and said, if you were the one I would just jump out and do anything just to make sure you are fine. 1st time I've ever heard such caring words from him.
Recent valentine's day 1st time having such expensive dinner, thanks to shogun not placing notice over the revise price. Sake was extremly strong, but still got to eat many many nice food. He did not tell me that he booked a twin seat =P and the movie was interesting too, jumper. So this is probably the last movie I watch with him for the whole year to come an end? I miss your arms keeping me warm T.T Anyhow I'll only be available to watch movie only during weekends or night time, since working life will come soon.
There are so much memories .... but why the time passed by so fast? I wish I could stop the time and let those good moments be there forever. I miss you my dear. I love you so much. Everytime when you're apart from me, I felt that pieces of my heart n soul followed you along. When you're apart is where we learn to appreciate the person the most. 1Year .. what am I gonna do?
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Author **Suzanne** @ 10:47 PM
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