Susubear Little Inn: Blame myself for having dyspepsia

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Thursday, September 08, 2005

Blame myself for having dyspepsia

The doctor diagnose that I have dyspepsia
Definition for dyspepsia - Dyspepsia is a pain or an uncomfortable feeling in the upper middle part of your stomach. The pain might come and go, but it's usually there most of the time.

What are the signs of dyspepsia?

Here are some of the signs of dyspepsia:

A gnawing or burning stomach pain
Bloating (a feeling of fullness in your stomach)
Heartburn (stomach contents coming back up into your throat)
Upset stomach (nausea)
Vomiting
Burping

What causes dyspepsia?

Often, dyspepsia is caused by a stomach ulcer or acid reflux disease. If you have acid reflux disease, stomach acid backs up into your esophagus (the tube leading from your mouth to your stomach). This causes pain in your chest. Your doctor may do some tests to find out if you have an ulcer or acid reflux disease.

If you have dyspepsia, your doctor will ask if you take certain medicines. Some medicines, like anti-inflammatory medicines, can cause dyspepsia.

Rarely, dyspepsia is caused by stomach cancer, so you should take this problem seriously. Sometimes no cause of dyspepsia can be found.

Everyday when it reaches morning I just don't feel like waking up. Forcing myself to climb up from the bed and forcing myself to eat. Who is to blame? I only can blame myself of being too "into" this relationship until I can't let go of it.

I know I have to choose to let go already there's no way of turning back anymore. I really do not want to be with someone that doesn't have me inside his heart. I want someone that would care for me when I'm sick, someone that would love me whole heartly.

I'm letting go ... I won't see him anymore. The more I see the more pain I'll feel deep inside my heart. I don't want to hear scolding from people anymore. I can no longer stand it. Neither I can be friends with him, it's too hard too pain.

I have to start eating or I'll end up in deep trouble. Went and see doctor today. Doctor said it's because of me being too stress and keeping too many things within myself. She asked me to cry it all out, asked me to talk to friends ... she ask me to let go. Gave me one medicine to take so that I would be able to eat. But after eating the medicine today I still fail to do so ... Am I really pushing myself too hard?

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