Susubear Little Inn: The Felling of Giving Up

Seeking My True Self

Sunday, August 28, 2005

The Felling of Giving Up

I felt this feeling within me. I felt like giving up everything I'm doing now. The road I'm walking on seems to be getting from broad to narrow. Branches from the trees are falling down to block my way and it's difficult to move it away. When you feel like talking to your friends about your problem, none are there for you. I understand that now, most of my close friends has their own life to go on with and we're no longer attached like what we used to be during secondary school.

I asked one of my friend " Can I borrow your shoulder to cry on? ". This friend agreed on it. I realise now my mind is fully loaded with so many problems that I wish that would never occur but it has happen to me once again. It's something I'm afraid of but I don't understand why it happen all over again... I only can say I'm very stressed up now and I'm really very afraid of somethings that I wish that would never occur. I really need a person's shoulder to lean on ... who'll be this kind friend of mine that doesn't mind if I cry all over his/her shirt? Need a big warm comfort hug rather than hugging a pillow everytime when I'm down ...

:: I just don't like looking or smelling food, totally lost my appetide due to too many stress. Maybe I should think of the consequences of being like that ? But I just can't help it ::

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