Susubear Little Inn: Anxiety is killing me

Seeking My True Self

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Anxiety is killing me

Well I've not touch or update my blog for quite a while, I guess most of the people who started work don't really have much time to update on their daily life anymore.

Routine -> Wake up -> Work -> Go Home -> Tired -> Sleep -> Repeat

I guess the next thing you step home after work you're only thinking about sleeping .. unless weekends which I love the most. I can hardly adjust to the sleeping pattern these days even 2months had went passed, I still have a big problem coping and having serious insomia that makes me feel extremely tired and hard to concentrate the next day as I won't be able to sleep the whole night. Then insomia will lead my stomach to produce acid then lead to gastric and in the end I'm very sick. Then worse I've been coughing non stop these few nights, lagi no need to sleep.

I don't know why going to bed at night had become a fear to me, I kept thinking that I need to wake up at this time for work tomorrow and I end up not sleeping the whole night, waking up every single hour looking at the clock. This is really suffering. I only manage to sleep at 7 then half an hour more is to work, every time I feel so reluctant to climb up from bed, I feel so tired, feeling like a dead meat.

I feel very insecure when I sleep, like there's lack of something beside me, worries as if my mind refuse to put the day to end, to give me a rest .. I'm starting to feel weaker day by day ..

Someone save me please? Or I just miss him too much ..

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