In loving memory of Aunt Irene
I wanted to write this a while ago, just that I do not have the time to sit down and think with a clear mind ..Having to lose someone, who has probably the best personality I've ever seen so far in my life
Having to lose someone, who always forgive
Having to lose someone, who's always kind and caring even until the last moment
She have shown everyone the faith she have in God, many are touched, people around were greatly encourage by the faith in her even how much pain and endurance she had went through ... and I am one of them, who has yet to learn so many qualities from her ...
Japan trip where she knows that I could not afford to pay for the ticket but I really wanting to go, without any condition, she just offered to pay for me the airfares. My grandmother insisted me to pay back and I did ... knowing that every family have their own financial burdens, I should not accept without considering. I fall sick during the 1st day of the trip itself, she talked to me over the phone and showing much concern.
The day when my dear flew off to Perth, leaving me behind, she's one of the person who cared the most about me. Never doubt every week in church, she would ask me how am I doing, instead of me asking. Once I did not show up due to event job, I was surprise to receive a call asking about how am I doing and why I did not turn up on that Sunday. I was very sick on that day, having a cold and fever, I sort of said I'm sick during the call ... until today I still remember the voice telling me to take care.
Somewhere last year, in the hospital, where she was pushed back from the tube insertion ... where I remembered she was shivering in cold and tearing, I will never forget the moment that I touched her head and wiping of tears on her face. I guess that was the longest conversation I had with her so far, purely talking about the boy at Perth.
Previously when my dear was busy and had to drive relatives around, she came by and told me that she had to take her son away from me for sometime to drive the relatives around. In my heart, I wanted to say that ... "Please don't ever say sorry to me, you have every right to take him away from me, I'm just nothing more than a girlfriend".
My baptism day, she told me sorry that she could not come as she was not feeling well, and welcome me to the Christ's family. During Christmas itself, she said she has nothing to give me but instead gave me some money.
Recently, I smsed her asking about her condition and saying that I did not have time to visit due to work, she told me that she's still holding there and ... she said sorry to me that she had not asked about me as well. She's forever that kind and caring ... I can never be that perfect.
The last msg I ever received was ... telling me to have a good holiday. Why ... even in the condition when she's not well, she still took up the phone and send me a sms. She's always that good to everyone. I will keep that msg forever.
I know if I were to continue writing, this post will never reach the end ...
Lastly, I just want to say that I'm truly sorry that we've not made it back in time. I know that you're in good hands now, living without pain and singing in the midst of heaven. I will try my best to take care of Caine, make sure that he'll throw that bad temper away slowly day by day, if one day in future he's the one for me, I will not forget about you on that very important day and call you my mom as well.
She has set a great example of both a wife and mother that I would want to be in near future.
To my beloved dear, I will always be there for you, I know I've mentioned this numerous time ... but I will still continue even u got fed up of listening. I really want to be with you, to provide you the love and care that you've ever needed. I don't know what's gonna happen in near future, but I only know that for now you're still the one I love and the one that I do not want to give up. Like how they said, through the first sight I just know that you're the one without doubt. I will not only share your joy but walk with you throughout the hard times to share every single burden you have in life. This is a very difficult period for you, but so far you've done very well and I'm proud of you. You were not that little boy I knew 7years ago anymore, now I felt much secure, having you here. Thank you for loving me all these while, you're good ... adv_username = "suzannetan"; adv_gid = "suzannetan_default"; adtype = "180x150";
Author **Suzanne** @ 1:56 AM
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