Susubear Little Inn: I waited and waited ....

Seeking My True Self

Monday, January 21, 2008

I waited and waited ....

I really waited for so long, days after days and months after months .... half a year just to catch a simple holiday before I start my job and get some endless shifts also before he's once again back there when I again have to face the days by my own. I really waited for so long .... why and how could it ended this way? Not even a slight of happiness given to me.

Same goes with the previous trips at Langkawi n Japan, even so I get to go I was in the midst of suffering not being able to eat well and totally in a really bad condition. My highest records was not eating for 4days and I'm still able to stand up and walk, so this proves if there's an earth quake I'll definitely survive.

I just wanted a simple holiday, having that one dinner, to leave this place in peace for a few days, to leave all troubles and problems behind. They say the longer u waited the more dying that you'll want to go. The higher hopes u placed the higher you fall. I thought at least I can have some time to talk over things that we need to resolve.

Everything was shattered into pieces, I just wanted that few days after so many unhappiness. I only could say that four months was never easy for me.

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