When Everything Turns So Disheartening
Sometimes, I just can't help asking ... How come things ended this way ?Even I've turned off my Msn pretending that I'm going to bed, but yet I realise that my mind is filled with tons of things, that will eventually make me stay awake even how sleepy I'm now.
Well, first it's about the job, that I've paid so much to earn a lesson, a lesson to learn what I want in life.. and not just barely listening to other people saying "Why until now you still haven't found a job" that kind of pressure and also looking solely based on money that I've accepted the job. Looking for a job in FMCG industry is not easy at all, whether it's a product or brand executive, they only want people with at least 2years experience. Especially passing the qualification of these big big companies. I'm really getting fedup of doing nothing everything for 3weeks already, except for photostating. And yes I hate doing sales.
Finally gotten my half month's paid salary, so now others complaining that I am so kedekut that I'm not willing to take out the money for my family's usage and so on. So what if I tell them I'm planning to save for myself to go for a holiday over at Perth? That requires around 2.5k at least? They'll still say I'm stingy and I only think about myself. Think and see, I'm a girl and my brother is a boy, a girl has much more things to buy every month compare to a guy and I have to go out eat everyday. They just can't stop complaining and comparing saying I'm useless. I'm tired of listening to all this at times, sometimes just feel like better still without my presence so that you people can live in peace.
To you people I was never good enough in everything. Whether it's my family or other people outside .. whatever I've done is never enough. In the end I'll only get many insults. So what's the whole point of me being here at all ? adv_username = "suzannetan"; adv_gid = "suzannetan_default"; adtype = "180x150";
Author **Suzanne** @ 2:28 AM
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