Journey of starting work
continue from the previous post ....When you're not working you don't see the need of spending, but after you starting working and when you earn a salary you start counting and calculating for everything. I'm tied up with a education loan that I need to pay off every month costing me RM200, paying for two household which is the one I'm staying now and of course my parents since my dad is the only one working now and my brother his income is pretty low starting as chef, also my soon to start college sister.
Management said I should consider getting a car as a sales staff, provided they would provide my a low interest car loan immediately, low well I do not know how low is that, I'm planning to get a Perodua ViVa, which is less costly than MyVi. Well, getting a car is another added burden as well in terms of paying of loan every month, insurance, maintenance and petrol.
So in conclusion I think probably I'll have no $$ left every month, unless I don't eat or don't buy anything for myself at all. Argh, how about those monthly personal stuffs that I really do need? A car is such a heavy burden to me. What about the trip I've plan? Worse still .. I thought things would be better off if I find a job, but terbalik more burdens and things are placed on me once I start earning money here. Also, not to forget from now on I pay for my own phone bills.
Thank you, I'm poured with many worries and tight budgeting now. I shall eat bread. No but I can't get any thiner. Troubled mind.
So you guys out there, parents who give you everything from car to house, imagine how lucky are you people not having to pay for this sorts of things in your life. While yet some spoil brats does not know how to appreciate such things. I get a car, I'll be tied with two freaking loans. I wish that I'm still young so all this wouldn't be my concern. I start to dislike growing up that fast.
You know what I feel like doing now? Finding a rich man and get married with him and make him settle all things of mine, just like what each and every other girls said.
Sometimes, you do wish that others could have understand what you've done so far .. being patience all these while, but no they just think otherwise of you, they think everything you do have a purpose behind. Maybe my face just give them the impression that I'm a bad girl, the evil one who's trying to steal things away from them? Or pretty much I have the bitchy look/attitude just like Cindy in MDG? Probably. No wonder they hate me so much, LOL.
I feel like don't know since when our distance had been wider, at times I really don't feel like saying a word because I'm more afraid of being annoying. Probably due to what happened that night which had really made me think alot, many evaluations on what had been said and so on. Sometimes, I would just glance at my phone, should I sms? Many times I've chose to pull back, one as like what I've mentioned afraid that I'm annoying and I do not want to portray as stealing your time.
Many thoughts are running through my mind, maybe I shouldn't think so much ..
If you could just think of what I've done so far and not to argue with me over a small thing, which makes me feel like I can't live with such a person in future of my life. No I've never put the blame on you even they insulted me, no neither I did count with you on many any other matters .. this is just a small matter and you reacted on me. I'm glad you apologise but I'm afraid of many things ahead .... adv_username = "suzannetan"; adv_gid = "suzannetan_default"; adtype = "180x150";
Author **Suzanne** @ 12:46 AM
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