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Monday, May 26, 2008

Faded feelings ..

Somehow I don't know why, I feel like part of the feelings had been faded, I no longer feel that way anymore, no longer like how things used to be ..

Maybe I'm really tired with things that's going around .. or probably I'm really getting tired with that attitude when a person don't really have the initiative to do something. Maybe I shouldn't expect so much, or I shouldn't ask for that much as I know that these things will never come true. Sometimes I've been thinking that I've done way too much, I think I should do less so that my expectation towards the return part would be lower.

If there's someone out there who's willing to do that much, that period would only last when that guy is dying to chase you but after that dream on or can go down to the drain when the word marriage is being tied up. Mens is that kind of human being. Making them to learn how to appreciate is even more difficult than reaching the stars.

I've only wish that there's one day, things will be done without me asking for them and repeating a million times in order to get things in the way that will make me happy.

I'm too much of a perfectionist, expecting everything to be done in a perfect way? Also the answer that I hate to hear is I dunno, I not sure, anything la, see how la by then .. perfectionist

Sometimes I just pause for a moment and I think .. "What the hack am I doing in my life now?"

My answer towards myself is "I don't really know, will I regret in near future?"

Seeking for answers that cannot be found I rather go sleep.

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