Susubear Little Inn: Thoughts ..

Seeking My True Self

Monday, March 03, 2008

Thoughts ..

Staying at home everyday really makes me feel rotten, waking up not doing anything makes me feel as if there's no motivation in life. Gosh, really takes ages for those big companies to get back to you while I can't wait to start work soon. Yes, I know after starting work, I probably sleeping at 12am everyday waking up at 6 or 7, since I assume most of the working place is in KL. Abit reluctant to leave the life I have now, but I still prefer a more fruitful life earning money.

I wish they get back to me as soon as possible, because I no longer wants to be jobless.

So like I've mentioned in the previous post, I was supposed to write about something .. (Someone wants to read)

At times I felt pretty fortunate when things goes well. First, I'm glad that my dear is one who does not like to hang out too late at night. At times, felt quite happy that he's willing to come home early over there, just to talk to me online. Next, also glad that he's willing to tell me his where about and he would call me at time. Or he would give me a message whenever he's home because he know that I'll be here worrying about him. Then whenever I have doubts, he's also willingly to explains everything even I did not asked for so much details. He told me that it's important for him to explain so that I could trust him.

Funny isn't it? When you have the person close to you during those years, nothing like this had ever happened before. But instead distance had made us closer. In terms of appreciating.

I'm more than glad to have him, because he's not a night person neither he do drinks until hang over. Most importantly smoking is a no no to me. I rather a guy stay home and stick to the PS2 /Xbox than going out there mixing with the wrong crowd. But everything have buts .. he has this extremely bad temper that test the patients I have within me. He would still get angry at me during times, for nothing, yes nothing, maybe someone or something irritated him and I ended up to be the bean bag.

I used to be someone who controls alot, but I've learned my lesson throughout the years and I've learn what is call giving each other some space during times. Listening to other stories about how their girls control them and not letting them go where ever they want, now when I think back I felt abit silly about all this behaviour. Well, let's put it this way, if his heart belongs to you whether u do control or not, he'll be faithful to you. Even you do control so much, at times he would just end up lying to you because he's afraid that you may be angry and rather choose to hide things from you. Whereby in the opposite, where you do not hold on that tight, instead he'll be the one turning around telling you about things.

If you call up him 24/7 to check out things, not only you've put ur mind into an extremely stress-ing state but you're also making him irritated and creating a bigger gap between your relationship. Mostly said that trust is the most important thing you need to have in a relationship, that trust you have on him/her is the foundation of everything. The trust needs to come from both party, having the trust and not taking the trust of each other for granted to go do something behind.

However, nothing is perfect .. at times there'll still be arguments that comes along but whether we'll walk until that day .. we sure do hope ..

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