Susubear Little Inn: I'm Lying if I were to said "No, I'm not sad"

Seeking My True Self

Monday, July 23, 2007

I'm Lying if I were to said "No, I'm not sad"

I've been trying to not let those thoughts go into my mind, practically running away from the truth because yeah kinda afraid to know what's gonna happen after that so I dare not think too much.

But then all I told myself was "Yeah everything is gonna be fine after you get use to it, gotta continue your life". Trying very hard to push myself, haven't reach the cliff yet so worry not, still trying to look on the positive side to comfort myself =P Holding back my tears very hard, although deeply inside my heart is crying.

Realise that after we grow up, everyone starts to have their own life, friends are all disperse all over the place, everyone is starting a new phase of their life. Process of growing up.

I had alot of great memories during the past half year, I've accomplished alot by fulfilling my dreams come true to Japan, also Redang one of the places I wanted to go like years ago with friends, we really did had alot of fun. I guess chances will be rare after this. People either leaving or starting to work, we no longer can find back moments like this.

Thank you that you've given me much memories that will never be wipe off for a lifetime. Probably the memories will be able to serve as a temporary replacement of your presence.

I can't say that "No I'm not sad at all". There were many many things within the past 7years, we've gone through alot together but of course not that alot like how the adults do la. Yes, I'm a very insecure person always worry all the time, worrying whether will be make it past this two years for all we've gone through in the 7. First of course whether each other is willing to be faithful and commit into the relationship. Then others it'll be totally up to God to decide.

I am willing to wait if there's faithfulness and assurance within this relationship.

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