Susubear Little Inn: Now I understand the true meaning

Seeking My True Self

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Now I understand the true meaning

After reading that piece of papers and reading through those previous posts, now I see the each and every hidden meaning within. I felt ONE word, betrayed. It can't be a coincidence, but then I'll have to face that all those are true facts infront of my eyes. I can't help holding myself not to let it out on him, can't help not to blame, because it hurts deeply within me to find out the truth.

I actually lied, yes it's wrong to lie, I lied to everyone around me, I actually know what's wrong with me but I did not tell the truth or make it simple, I did not dare to face it. Revealing the truth takes alot of courage, yet to face it it's more difficult than ever. I chosed to ran away all the time. Don't worry this is not the matter about anyone at all. I'll tell when I'm prepared to reveal it.

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