True Friend, So Alone
It was kinda long since I last blog. Kinda busy all these while with upcoming final exams. Scared scared .. Just finished my last assignment on Principles of Management one subject I worry the most among all. At least all the others subject I've collect some marks on hand, let's say I need most probably 15-20 marks for my finals in order to pass those subjects but not for Management. I've posted in the previous blog that I scored badly for my first individual assignment due to the marking by the Austrlia lecturer and yet today another bad news which is my group got the lowest marks for the presentation. Sigh .. *why how come cannot !! * There are groups that had done worst than ours, groups that speak out of topic. How come they even score highest than us ? Even lecturer told us our performance on that day was "not bad" ???!Well forget about it. I've gotta work harder. Let's talk about true friend now. I've never had one in my life. None which I can really share my problems with when I really need someone there for me. Since primary school I'm know as the "shortie lil ugly girl". Just bcos I was so tiny last time and my classmates used to bully me and they just can't help criticising me.
I was in the top 3 classes during my primary school times. Students in so called "good" classes tend to look down on those from "middle" classes. However, I'm view as a "inferior" student to them even I'm in one of those classes. During my standard 6 school trip, those friends of mine from "good" classes do not want to mix with me. I had to mix with those students from "middle" classes since they rejected me so much. I found it much comfortable to be with those from the "middle" classes than those who thinks they are really so good and those being proud all the while. The techer actually thought they lost me during one of the visit to museum because I left my group of friends and joined those which I'm much more comfortable with.
Ah ... I've been rejected all the while during my primary school times no one really treat me as their friend. How about my secondary .... it's still almost the same. Except I've got 6 friends that I've always mix together but still I didn't manage to find one true friend. Until now .. there's still none .. True friend are those who really cares for you, and those who u really can share everything in your life with.
- Just because I do not like to talk, it doesn't mean I'm proud or arrogant -
- I'm weird, yes I'm in some ways, but it doesn't mean that I'm not friendly? - adv_username = "suzannetan"; adv_gid = "suzannetan_default"; adtype = "180x150";
Author **Suzanne** @ 1:26 AM
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