Susubear Little Inn: Time to wake up from dream and move on to reality

Seeking My True Self

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Time to wake up from dream and move on to reality

Every time things had always been like a dream .. never ending dream for me .. that I will not be able to wake up but just purely living in that comfort zone .. a dream will never last ..

Do you know how it feels to miss someone badly? Every day still goes on, the sun still rise, we still wake up from sleep and do things we're supposed to do .. but somehow you can feel that something is missing there, the emptiness that cannot be explained by words, somehow that feelings just stay in the heart, no matter how busy the day is, until the night comes when everything seems to be quiet down, that feeling will even become stronger .. going into bed with that feeling and waking up with the same one over and over again ..

It does feels like a dream, a dream that can never be awaken .. until that day comes .. is that call loneliness?

I've always place someone else first in everything, including considering much on how things would work out, even I need to place extra hard work, planning schedule ahead or doing things to suit the other person's way. I realise I've not been living up to myself, sometimes I just can't help pondering why did I do so much after all?

Hopefully I will change one day .. or sooner .. standing up for myself .. living for what I really want in my life ..

Can I be a bad girl for once? I've always wanted to do that .. the rebellious side of me .. Nah it's just another bad mood day for me .. I won't really do it at all ..

Life goes on and time will never stop for me ..

Another thing, please do not remind me of my 22nd birthday this year, I just want to pass that day without any celebration, no cake, no singing song, no cards and no wishes .. This way it would be more special isn't it? No big deal, I'm just one year older, more wrinkles, more responsibilities and more mature (maybe for this one) .. This is life, you have to accept it no matter how hard it's gonna be .. Live or Die, Why so Serious?

and lucky bitches out there stop complaining about your life when you have everything you want, you get to buy everything, travel where ever you want .. you know what you should just shut up and enjoy your fucking life before you get lose of anything you have now .. bunch of retarded princess, like some bloggers that can't stop bragging about branded stuffs, the super young Dawn Yang wanna be made in M'sia, eww get to go for holiday and still complain?? If you all know who's that retarded princess who self claim can write a book. Who would buy? others retarded princess loh, read already become like her another bimbo

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