Susubear Little Inn: Realise ..

Seeking My True Self

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Realise ..

I may had been brought up here, to have a better life, getting most things I want staying here, but however something there's missing ..

The happiness I had while staying as a family. While staying there, it's forever filled with noises and people around making me laugh. My lil sister will never failed in doing all those lame things and asking those questions kids will ask. She asked that day "What is a condom?", when my older sister was telling some funny sorry. No one answered her, then she turned her head over to ask my mom. So well, my sister learned alot of bad things from staying with all this bad sis n bro who talks over stupid things.

I don't know why, I starting to feel lonely after coming back here even I got my own computer, my own room, everything of my own. I miss going mamak with them, talking over how to cheat in exams, how we played prank on people, gossiping over our cousins =P n laguhing over stupid things. Gosh, I really miss them so much now what's happening to me?

Now I guess nothing beats the materials n money than having a family beside you, those are the happiness that cannot be found. Mom who never complained but spend the whole afternoon jsut helping me to fax something over. Who's willing to give me money to spend on a trip, even there's not enough for the household . But of course I rejected, how can I bare to take .. Brother who's supposed to paid for the supper, but after listening him not enough money to even reload his phone I insisted to pay. Only those who had went through, would know how I feel.

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