Susubear Little Inn: Mirror, mirror, Please tell Me

Seeking My True Self

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Mirror, mirror, Please tell Me

Mirror please tell me why had I been so lost lately? I can stare at the sky and thinking of the past, some images that are not supposed to be reminded. Still I stare but I couldn't find answer for it, I am just so lost of myself these past few days.

"You can always lie to yourself, but never lie to your heart". Sigh, had I been living in lies? That I knew that I was never the one since that day, but still why am I lying to myself? The day to realise that I was never there a part in one's heart, but instead someone else is and forever these can never be changed ? I've always questioned myself, had I not done enough? Or perhaps, why one that had never done anything can stand a greater part in one's heart? Sigh, I am such a loser in love.

If the person truly loves you, why can't him/her answer the question whether do he/she truly do love u in split seconds? I guess maybe one is filled with doubts or frustrations. I am always stick with the tag of being re-cycled when I am not needed at times.

Or perhaps when you could feel that something had went wrong somewhere, you would doubt the person greatly but he/she had not chosed to clarify. The answer to me when there is no clarification made was what I said was right. It's the same as why do one need to bother or care to clear the misunderstanding when he/she could not be bother about you, whilst he/she are more interested with the other party?

I guess it had came to a conclusion that those that can never be get would be considered as superior one, the more you dying to have one, the more precious it's to you. While people like me are more related to inferior one, who had stayed there and be there all the time, just because I'm soft hearted.

I am lost, so lost, I doubt the love one had for me or perhaps it was never meant for me but for someone who is more superior compare to inferior goods like me. Well I really do not give a damn on what I've said here, when one does not bother of losing me

Thanks for someone who had stayed there to comfort me all the while, I really needed it so much. *hugs* I know that person does read. Maybe somedays without doubts, I will not turn back like last time ever, then this will be the day that's too late for you to regret on how deep u had hurt me.

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