Susubear Little Inn: Young and Immature

Seeking My True Self

Saturday, March 07, 2009

Young and Immature

Reflecting of what I've done years ago, sometimes I really felt those things they're all so immature and not even have a single clue of why I have such thoughts of behaviors when I was young. I am sure these things happen to everyone of your out there. Either regrets or find them so funny.

Revealing my one secret that I've not told anyone before, here I will write these out tonight.

You know why on earth did I enter KDU which is one of the jatuh standard college? First, I've done a research on few Colleges which includes, Taylors, Sunway, KBU, Help and KDU. After that, choice was scaled down to Help and KDU. After visiting both colleges my choice was supposed to be Help University College. To me the environment seems to be much better. I actually wanted Help so badly, where I persuaded my aunt transportation should be fine although my aunt says KDU is a better choice in terms of transportation and fees and other stuffs. Until the very day I heard the guy of my life, he will be joining KDU instead, without a second doubt I agreed to my aunt's decision.

Regrets? Yes, education wise, until today I still feel that if I chose Help I would have a better education over there. Guy? No, I won't be able to win his heart back if I am far. So half half.

One of my second year management paper was like 2days away and I decided to go funfair and throw the books aside for the night. I came back staring at the book and the book is like giving me kinda "puss in boots" looks, telling me "Suzanne, where have you been you're not supposed to abandon me you lazy girl". I felt so guilty for going out but I still do that so often even watching movie a day before exam, apparently these works where I will study even harder being last minute.

Regrets? No. Thank God I've passed all my semester.

Years ago during Valentine's day, he was admit to hospital due to some kind of suspected dengue which turned out to be a NO. At night after I came home, he told me there's no more drinkable water in the room where the hospital water tasted like klorin. Hmm, out of my mind I wanted to walk to the hospital in the morning 8am which is like half an hour distance from my house and after that rush to my orientation at KDU 10am. In the end, I did not do that.

Regrets? No, I am so glad that I did not lose my mind or else I will be kidnapped.

I always wanted to cut my barbie doll's hair when I was young but I did not, because I feel heartache to cut off a barbie's hair which had cost RM50.

Regrets? Yes, I should had bought a cheap one and chopped off her blond hair for fun.

There's still so many countless immature things that I've done in my life :

- Taking a damn cab from and to 1U to his house just to visit him just because he cut his hand due to some dumb behaviors? - Good thing that the world is still safe years ago

- Bringing my 1000page thick law legislation book inside the exam room and I have no idea what am I writing at all, I can't even differentiate the sections and imagine I've 50 colour tags on the book which appear to be nice but useless - Law is my biggest weakness

- Denying that I have astigmatism when I was standard 3, teacher ask me whether I can see, without a doubt I said yes, yes and yes. I was given a specs with 100-200 degrees however too shy to wear on my cute face which will turn to be "four eye chicken" - Stupid thoughts that made me add on too 700 degrees ...

I can't recall at the moment, wondering why I was pretty daring when I was young however immature where I always risk my own life or health. Being 23 makes me feel so old. Tired.

I'm lazy to upload and write a post about the prize giving ceremony, maybe sometime later when I have the mood ok? I am so sleepy now, apparently did not have a good sleep last night. I am easily awaken and frightened at night where all the worries kept pouring until I have insomnia.

A piece of art that I've done to enter the MSN add love to live contest but sadly did not win for this one =)

Captions written accompanying this photo

I sound like a pure marketing personnel trying to promote a product

When I miss you, webcam is the only solution,

When I am bored, Solitaire shutdown kept us alive,

When I want to show you pictures, sharing folder is the easiest way,

When I feel like drawing, I doodle to express myself to you.