A Piece of Glass Between Us
Just because of some words ... or should I say some sentences instead revealed in a somewhat typical situation which in returned had created a big misunderstading, or well it might be reveal on purpose which I do not know what the purpose is which had causes a serious damage on a relationship. Well, I wouldn't say things if I do not mean it. I won't go around telling guys "I love you" when I do not really mean it because I know there's a limit as it'll hurt those who thought I really did meant what is uttered out from my mouth.A piece of glass where is seems to be invisible between us as we are able to see each other through the transparent glass. This piece of glass is located in the middle of us which had held us back from stretching our hand out to the one opposite us. It's invisible but a solid object that had stopped us or even blocked us from being united. Many conflicts and problems had arises from there as we're unable to understand or tolerate each other more due that that blocking piece of glass. I was once trying to smash down that piece of glass but I've always failed or should I said I've failed numerous times.
Even I was once succeed in smashing the glass somehow it had built up again and again. Once I thought it was my fault but slowly I realise it was due to some circumstances which is not on to my control. The process of it had causes much damage to my personal life which had changed me totally. That piece of glass is something I really do want to remove between us but without the compromise of other factor would it be able to work out? I doubt so.
I've done much to the extend of putting much effort in doing each and little small things that in return will make him happy in life. Spend much brain juice of thinking what would made the best present ever. In total I've created or bought 6 presents but did it really made him happy or did he really appreciate for what I've done all this while? If yes, I guess I would get an immediate call but it is not until I opened my mouth to ask about it. Well, I guess I shall not say more on what I've done as this would only create a sense of guiltiness or people might think that I'm doing just because I wanted something back from it. But my answer is no. I didn't wanted anything back from it.
I'm not perfect. I'm not complete. I'm not whole. What made me near perfect is having you in my life. A piece of glass that is between us had torned us apart for many times. Even myself do not know how to mend my own broken heart yet I do know how to mend a torn hole in the shirt. It's near 3AM, I need to catch some sleep soon for my simulation tomorrow as I'm taking up a strong role there. Will I be strong tomorrow? I do not know, maybe with the help of my friends. I just want to smash that piece of glass now. Stressful, doubtful, being a fool. adv_username = "suzannetan"; adv_gid = "suzannetan_default"; adtype = "180x150";
Author **Suzanne** @ 2:07 AM
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